ohsirened

hey guys,
          	
          	i don't know whether to continue writing ballad of the phoenix anymore. it's been at a standstill for the last two years, and whilst i do cherish house vaharys and my characters and all the time/energy/support for it... i just feel as though i'm not getting anywhere with it. i've always been an inconsistent writer and i haven't had any ideas or even any new ideas for other fandoms i am a part of. i've experiened writer's burn out before which lead me to stop writing for over two years and trying to recover from that has been extremely difficult. i think i am experiencing another burn out. it's very difficult for me to find any inspiration or even motivation to continue. one would think that now i have all the free time in the world to write whenever i want without the shadow of academia or adult obstacles hindering my productivity and my craft, which i used to be so passionate about once. but i haven't had an inkling of motivation or a burst of creativity to get me going. which sucks. and it's only made me feel worse about myself and my writing, as a whole.

ohsirened

@mydarkflower i love you so so much - your words are so kind and supportive, and you've been nothing more than such an amazing friend. honestly, i didn't expect a response at all haha - i was mainly venting and wrote this at 3am but yeah, it's been so difficult in terms of finding the energy to write as well as the motivation? i hope i don't lose my spark and that i do end up finding the once lost joy writing used to bring me - i think i probably need some time off to find inspiration. but i love you so so much, you mean so much to me and thank you for always being understanding! <3
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mydarkflower

This is completely understandable, I’m glad you took the initiative to let this out. I believe that your mind is absolutely incredible, and if you do decide to discontinue ballad of the phoenix and perhaps pursue another project you have in mind, that’s absolutely alright. It’s also absolutely alright to discontinue ballad of the phoenix and just not write for a while as well! I understand that even despite your age or your amount of free time, holding on to the passion and motivation to do a particular thing can still be scarce. It’s an awful feeling, but it’s also okay! Only you can dictate how you want to go about your own writing journey and I know that regardless of whatever decision you make and whatever you decide to write, there will be people to support you (like me), and even better, you’ll hopefully gain the motivation and inspiration if you let yourself pursue what you think is best for you! Wishing you all the best, I hope that in time (give yourself all the time you need), the passion that comes with writing something you feel extremely connected to comes back. <33
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ohsirened

hey guys,
          
          i don't know whether to continue writing ballad of the phoenix anymore. it's been at a standstill for the last two years, and whilst i do cherish house vaharys and my characters and all the time/energy/support for it... i just feel as though i'm not getting anywhere with it. i've always been an inconsistent writer and i haven't had any ideas or even any new ideas for other fandoms i am a part of. i've experiened writer's burn out before which lead me to stop writing for over two years and trying to recover from that has been extremely difficult. i think i am experiencing another burn out. it's very difficult for me to find any inspiration or even motivation to continue. one would think that now i have all the free time in the world to write whenever i want without the shadow of academia or adult obstacles hindering my productivity and my craft, which i used to be so passionate about once. but i haven't had an inkling of motivation or a burst of creativity to get me going. which sucks. and it's only made me feel worse about myself and my writing, as a whole.

ohsirened

@mydarkflower i love you so so much - your words are so kind and supportive, and you've been nothing more than such an amazing friend. honestly, i didn't expect a response at all haha - i was mainly venting and wrote this at 3am but yeah, it's been so difficult in terms of finding the energy to write as well as the motivation? i hope i don't lose my spark and that i do end up finding the once lost joy writing used to bring me - i think i probably need some time off to find inspiration. but i love you so so much, you mean so much to me and thank you for always being understanding! <3
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mydarkflower

This is completely understandable, I’m glad you took the initiative to let this out. I believe that your mind is absolutely incredible, and if you do decide to discontinue ballad of the phoenix and perhaps pursue another project you have in mind, that’s absolutely alright. It’s also absolutely alright to discontinue ballad of the phoenix and just not write for a while as well! I understand that even despite your age or your amount of free time, holding on to the passion and motivation to do a particular thing can still be scarce. It’s an awful feeling, but it’s also okay! Only you can dictate how you want to go about your own writing journey and I know that regardless of whatever decision you make and whatever you decide to write, there will be people to support you (like me), and even better, you’ll hopefully gain the motivation and inspiration if you let yourself pursue what you think is best for you! Wishing you all the best, I hope that in time (give yourself all the time you need), the passion that comes with writing something you feel extremely connected to comes back. <33
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ohsirened

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ohsirened

@tmrscovenx of course <3
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tmrscovenx

Thank you for sharing!! <3
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ohsirened

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ohsirened

@girldirt HAIIIII I MISSED U
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ohsirened

@crierayla im back for tom and amoret i miss them
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ohsirened

@mydarkflower HI BBY
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ohsirened

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