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i'm not happy

i'm never enough , not for anyone

i really let my boyfriend go to a party where there will b a bunch of pretty girls
          at first i didn't care bc i know he would never do anything like that but..
          now i'm like...questioning it
          i'm so much sh*ttier compared to them
          uglier
          i could've went but bc i'm big stupid i didn't ...and now i'm complaining about being lonely
          i'd rather be lonely than hang out with a crowd that i don't think i'd click with

i want to cry
          why can't i love myself

also since when did you have to pay to read certain stories on this app........throwback to the good days when everything was free on here....as it should be .

this school year was absolute hell and im glad its over.

god my life has been such a sh!t show. 
          i will never be happy no matter how hard i try i always try and its never enogu ha nothign ever satisfies me WHY CANT I BE GOOD ENOUGH WHY CANT I BE HAPPY

i feel like all of my friends lives are falling apart and it really makes me fvcking sad that i cant do anything to help them 
          im really really sad
          im really sadd

bbeep beep lettuce. i love keeping this account alive.

sad and unmotivated : )))) really depressed