onceuponatime992

They lied. It’s not better and it won’t be getting better. I’m sorry. I can’t do this anymore. 

Is your story Anyone's Help? on any other site or app?

I’ve got a new story about a correctional governess who has to decide to keep her and her daughter safe from her own life or to stay where everything seems to be normal. You want it posted? 

Why is it so hard to have a conversation or go through life without feeling no one wants your around?
          I know at least a few people care about me. At least I hope so but I still can’t get over the feeling that people don’t want me around.
          Why can’t I be normal? My life is a mess and there’s nothing I can do.
          Ignore what I think is my best bet in living a life where I can actually carry on a conversation. 

I’m signing off now. 

I seriously can’t handle this any longer.
          I mean what’s the point?
          I can’t be with anyone I want to be with.
          Because I’m stupid and ignorant and worthless.
          I’m not doing any of this for attention.
          This is my rant.
          I ruined my life and I know it.
          I don’t need anyone( family ) to tell me what I already know.
          I hate how they chose my life for me.
          I hate how Everyone is so against me.
          But I suppose I deserve it. 
          If I died today then the sun would still rise. The birds would still chirp. So why should I stay?
          The world would be more beautiful anyhow.
          At least if I leave then I can finally let go of the people of my past.
          And I can get rid of the people in the present.
          And I wouldn’t have to worry about the people of my future.
          I have no future anyhow.
          I ruined that a long time ago. 

Christmas is always the hardest time of the year.
          My grandma asking about my relationships. 
          (Wouldn't be going on if I had a choice. I'll have to wait until I'm 18 or he leaves.) 
          They are so homophobic and racist. 
          I can't stand it.
          Me liking girls isn't a problem. 
          The only reason I couldn't stay in my first relationship ever was because my grandma found out, threatened to send me away, and threatened to disown me.
          My eating disorder only grows worse. 
          I'm nearly 100lbs. 
          I should be happy but the numbers only make me hurt.
          Why can't I just be normal?
          Have a normal family?
          Have a normal life?
          Why can't we live in a world where racism, homophobia and threatening doesn't exist? 
          I'm sick of it.
          I'm sick of life.

If only I had started this knowing how much people are against me.
          I don’t think I would have started. 
          I wish I had known how many people hate every part of me. 
          I wish I knew how many people wanted to see me fail. 
          Because if I did. 
          I wouldn’t have began in the first place. 
          I’m done now. 
          This silly game. 
          I’m done.
          

Literally no one wants me. I don’t know why I even bother. 
          This self help center doesn’t help at all. 
          I find now reason to even do this anymore. 

From now on I’m only posting stories that are not fan fictions. If you only follow me for the fan fictions then unfollow me but they have too many memories and triggering things I’ve wrote abojttor the past few years and I can’t handle having them anymore. I’m sorry.