⋮ エミ .ᐟ

"What do u want for Christmas?"
          
          My answer ︙ "I dunno"
          
          My real answer ︙ "Girl give me a WHOLE COLLECTION of any fandom I like."

Rip Saiki, you would've hated 67.
          
          I assume Kaidou would say 67. Also Nendou.

GENUINELY SCARED FOR EPISODE 31 OF ON YOUR SIDE FROM YEOSM.
          
          IS ROGER OK !??? MY SHAYLA– ☹️

!! NEW SHIP !!
          
          Dazai x SpongeBob .
          
          IT'S AMAZING RIGHT !?

Soo... I know I did NOT tell you guys what happened over the week ( not that you guys care but wtv : D ) It will be the time I will continue what happened and happens! So first, I found out that one of my friends, K, likes a guy that I liked back in 5th grade. I was honestly sad and a bit disappointed but I couldn't do anything abt atp. They [ S, Sk, and K, the one that likes him ] didn't even tell me abt it but I just heard them from my table at lunch. I didn't really care that much because the guy didn't talk to me since 5th grade and he does talk to my friend that likes him. Also, my other friend, M, told me that one day, she asked him what he thought abt me and at first he asked who and M said me [ her friend ] then she decided to ask him if he would date me and he said no. It was honestly expected. I wasn't there to hear him but M just told me that when we were at lunch. I decided that I just had to let go of my feelings for him and just... Not like him anymore AND let my friend, K, like him instead.
          
           Anyway, with the new kid that is my friend, [ read the other post message I posted on my board to know the story ] we don't talk much anymore. I honestly don't know why but I remember talking to myself saying that I wish I could detach myself from him and not be as close to him AND THEN THE NEXT DAY– WE DON'T TALK. I DIDN'T EVEN MEAN MY WORDS TO JUST COME TRUE LIKE– I MEAN. I DID NOT BUT NOT REALLY  But anyway, yeah. We don't talk much and my friends STILL ship me with him even though we barely talk anymore.

Uhh ... HAPPY HALLOWEEN  :3
          
          Anyway, he didn't come to school today.  
          I was literally jst telling myself that I did NOT miss him but I kinda did... When I was at lunch and I was sitting with my friends, one of them said I was down cuz "my man" didn't come to school today and I denied it obviously CUZ I DID NOT WANT TO ADMIT I KINDA DID MISS HIM. Also, when I was at my last class for today, some guy that was sitting next to said if it was really true I did like him and I was like- no. And he said- even if he actually did like you, you would still say no? And here I obviously said yeah but IF. IF. he did actually like me, I would definitely say I would like him back cuz LIKE??? WHO WOULDN'T– *COUGH* YEAH... Anyway, let's hope I'll talk to him next time!
          
          ( Better luck next time. )

Sooo... I basically didn't talk to him for 3 classes and after I had to leave early since my dad picked me up cuz I had a dentist appointment. When I was in my classes, I didn't want to talk to him or even look at him ( I did look at him jst a bit ) cuz I wanted to detach myself from him so I won't become so attached to him and for in love with him basically. I felt like he was watching very few little times but it was whatever. Now, there was ts wanna be popular girl always talking to him and he would jst tease her and whatever and when I say that, I felt jealous but also very mad and sad. I felt like she was going to be my replacement. I literally hated my feelings SO MUCH like, I hated her sm and him. When it was lunch time, we went to the cafeteria and when I was in line, he was next to ts guy that was next to me and he decided to say something abt me and i- *tch* at him but I smiled and whatever and that was literally just the only time I talked to him today and after lunch, I left early like I said. Oh, also. When I was at my table, my friend next to me said that she saw him looking at me and I said I know cuz sometimes I would look at him too but I wasn't always sure if he was actually looking at me or not.
          
          LET'S SEE WHAT HAPPENS TMRW ALSO, HAPPY EARLY HALLOWEEN ! I'ma be Sieun from Weak Hero :3
          
          ( It will be October 31 tomorrow from where I am. )

I became TO attached to him. I hate it. I hate him. Sm. But I love him... I honestly don't even know my own feelings and how I feel abt him. I've always thought he looked fine and whatever but I say it as a compliment and not like I actually like him or whatever, it was just a compliment. But ever since I got closer than him, I didn't know if I ACTUALLY DID LIKE HIM FRFR. The fact that I THINK AND I'M PRETTY SURE he has a girlfriend but she's just not in my school. He was honestly like the very first, realist boy–friend I ever had and I really appreciate that but I did not want to be in love with him... Or if I even am. I do get jealous when he's with other girls and teases them but of course I couldn't do anything abt that and when we're in other classes and he was told to sit by some girl at some table, I just- *Tch* like that. I get annoyed that he doesn't sit with me and the teacher jst puts him somewhere else, and I think that means I like him, doesn't it? I really hate ts... I'm supposed to like J ( the first guy I ever liked. ) not HIM. I just wish I never liked him and just considered him as a friend but my feelings were like– NOPE.
          
          Anyway, let's see how tmrw goes I guess.

should i watch the summer that hikaru died?? (i cant spell)

JUST MADE A NEW FRIEND TODAY AT SCHOOL !!! ( I think. )
          
          I was in science class and there was ts new  kid that came to my school jst yesterday and he sat next to me but like at the edge of the table. ( We had those big tables idk how to describe them tho. ) He started to just play with me and like, tease me and whatever while I was jst kinda having fun and jst laughing but then he decided to ask me if we're friends or not and inside of me wanted to say no but I really, REALLY WANTED to say yes so I decided to say I guess. He's honestly funny and I'm glad I was able to make a friend :3