Another sidenote: finally spoke to my ex yesterday and I finally got the closure I deserved.
So recap for those that remember: at the time he and I was together, there was a lot of scares and I found out I had epilepsy at the time so it made me be sad.
Turns out he thought that since I was dealing with that and much more, he thought I wouldn't have time for him and thought it was best he'd walk away from me.
I told him that he should've communicated with me instead of moving the way he did because he left us both confused because he didn't know where my head was and I didn't know why acted that way.
He apologized and we're back cool... We're also back together and I told him the communication needs to be worked on so hopefully this will work out this go round.
Wish me luck, y'all