onxybangtan

I can’t handle this page...it’s the weight, the guilt, the tears I’m so happy that I left this page the only good thing I have are a couple of my books that I’m actually proud of....I’m sorry for discontinuing my books but it’s for the better—goodbye onxybangtan 

Feels weird being on this account again it’s like it’s forbidden for me....don’t like this feeling 

I know I said I am inactive but I want to publish some chapters that I didn’t publish...the drafts basically 

All books are discontinued I tried finishing I just can’t my new main is @uncledani
          
          Fanfic is @strahoseokberry 
          
          Thank you guys for everything   

So October came and I was gonna update for all my books but I couldn’t I just don’t have the time for this account anymore
          
          My personal is coming soon, I’m gonna make this account inactive 
          
          The books that I have on here are gonna be moved, the books I want to be moved
          
          I still have my fan account with my better books
          
          I had a good run on this account but it’s time for a new journey 

September is almost over and I’m gonna be honest I haven’t finished any book on here I have chapters stored it’s just I don’t know if I want to post them or not.....hopefully this week I will officially say if I’m extending the time or not for this account alsooo I may just kind of end this account because I have personal books that I want to put on a personal account so this may turn into a personal account or just be inactive ☹ 
          
          
          Don’t forget I have a fan account @strahoseokberry where all my better books are on there ☻ 
          
          My personal is mostly gonna be named uncle dani so be on the look out Ꙭ 

Let me go into more depth about this, at first I wanted to quit writing and I did for a while months maybe
          
          When I write chapters for my books I literally pull them right out my ass and don’t get me wrong there good it’s just takes me so long for some inspiration as for my other account when I write something doesn’t take me weeks or months to make a chapter that either gets deleted or delete it myself because it makes no sense 
          
          I have been updating saying “iM sO dEprEssEd” and honestly I have been :( don’t feel any good right about now feels like things been falling apart and then I put them together but one stick falls and it’s like I just don’t know what to do
          
          In other words by the end of September maybe the first week of October I’m not gonna write on here anymore the books that I have I’m going to finish them and if I don’t then I’ll either discontinue or just write them on my second account 

Been thinking about this for months and I kind of just want to quit writing on this account and start over 
          
          I just feel like everything I have on here is just getting crowded up and the rest of my books on here suck ass except like maybe two of them possibly three
          
          I’ll probably just keep this account to idk read on here 
          
          I’ll give it more thought but I just feel like quitting everything on here, I really do enjoy my books on my other account these books on my main just suck and no one can tell me different :(
          
          Sorry for being so depressing I just want something new, if I want to fix my mental health then I need to change some things for me and I think this is the best decision for me

See there’s a boy I like and he’s moving away (well that’s what he told me but we’ll see) anywho he’s moving and he said some very forgettable words to me and I can just easily tell him I like him and let things move along course but I can’t and I won’t it’s not that easy as it is in my head sure I can just text him and be like aye I like you but I won’t bc for some reason I have a fear of being in a relationship even doe I never been in one and have no experience but at the same time I want to be in one and experience all that good stuff but I’m scared to do so in other words ya girl is scared to like someone bc shit like dat happens to me the person either doesn’t like me at all or doesn’t know me, orrrr they go away and just disappear off the face of this planet and it sucks but I guess it’s what I deserve even doe I did nothing wrong (I have a fear of relationships with anyone help pls)

Okay I need to vent I would do this on my spam on Instagram but it’s just embarrassing yk and I don’t know I just want to say it on here