Onyx

im back in case y’all were wondering lol nice to be here again!
          gonna start up with sempiternal again after finals end (next week) so look out for an announcement about that!! and might upload to ao3 but who knows im not the best at doing what i say i will ://

Heyyyyy its been long how are you?

hiii
          i’m back
          after literal months
          yay
          
          prolly gonna vanish again after this so if you got anything to say, say it now or i’ll see it in a few months when i come back :D

Hey babe. Haven't heard from you in a long time. How are you doing?

LIMELIGHT 

it’s world suicide prevention day so here are 10 absolutely, 100%, would-even-be-on-an-alien-planet-where-everyone-only-eats-lettuce true reasons why you, my friend, should not kill yourself:
          1. people care about you
          2. someone, at least one person in this world, looks forward to seeing you so much that before they do the anticipation makes them over the fucking moon happy and afterwards they are sad because you’re not together anymore
          3. you look so beautiful when you see something you love
          4. even if you don’t like you, other people do and will never get over it if you do kill yourself
          5. to fall in love with something or someone
          6. so that you can say fuck you to your brain and anyone else who made you feel like you have no other way out, because there is one
          7. how your sibling(s)/your best friend/anyone else you care about will feel when they realize the last time they saw you was the last time they’ll ever see you
          8. to watch tv/movie remakes of your favorite books and realize why you love them so much all over again
          9. to live the life you want to
          and, last but definitely not least:
          10. there is absolutely no one else like you, which is a good thing, because that means no one will ever be able to come close to replacing you, but also a bad one because if there was more of you the world would be so much better.
          so don’t leave, okay? <3

Ur bio made my day <3

my brain sucks and i want it(and everyone else up there)to go away and leave me be because they’re making my life hell and i need to to stop before i do something to make it

i think my face is hot af but i am literally starving on purpose because of how my brain thinks my body looks
          WHYYYYYYYYYY
          also why is it so much harder for me to not shave my legs than any other part of me?? like i don’t shave anything else and i’m good i’m fucking empowered okay and then when i think about not shaving my legs some part of my brain is like no. and i get all anxious about people judging and shit ugh it’s soo annoying like i don’t gaf about beauty standards for femme people anymore but some unresolved shit about my leg hair from my past is stopping me from not wasting an hour shaving them every time i want to wear shorts. also my mustache gives me incredible euphoria on masc days lmaoo
          also i’m just saying this to y’all because i can’t tell anyone else because all my friends are heteros who don’t understand my need to say fuck you to society. clearly i am in desperate need of irl queer friends who want to destroy society… or a therapist

i’m fucking exhausted 
          “so why don’t you sleep onyx” you may ask
          I CANT. MY BRAIN IS FUCKING AWFUL AND NOT LETTING ME SLEEP EODHEOXJWLAOAJDOAMAHAOOFISKAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I HATE THIS -_-