- I’m in so much pain, I don’t want it to be true, I want him to turn up and say that it isn’t real, that he is ok and alive. I just want him back. I never thought an idol would do this, I never thought that they would go to this extent, I thought that everything would be ok, but no, nothing is perfect, nothing is ok, no one is just ok, and it breaks my heart. I just need someone to tell me that it isn’t real... please... - I’m not going to be active on any of my social media sites other then Wattpad as it is my source of happiness, but don’t expect me to answer to messages or comments or anything. Thank you everyone for writing books and making me a happier person!