ophelia_sage

okay so i may have disappeared for a few months, but I'm back now! that's all that matters.

ophelia_sage

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okay so I admit. I think I've hit a humongous writers block. A big phat chunky writers block. I want to write. All I think about is writing but I cannot for the life of me get anything worth reading written down. I'm trying, I really am trying. But no matter what, everything I write sounds like shit.
          
          It's so frustrating, especially when the book is two chapters away from being finished. It's some peculiar form of torture I'm sure. I'll keep trying until something sticks. No other option I guess.

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living through the normal spiral of worrying I'm not a good author and I've wasted hours on the shit I've written. but like, a week ago I was suffering from the same wreckless self-doubt and I decided to see what I was up against. so I went and read a book that had over 70mil reads and guys.... it was shit. it was so shit I was in my kitchen howling with laughter because I really thought I could be an author. 
          
          i didn't connect with any of the characters and the pacing was all wrong and although there were no grammatical errors it was fucking bad bro. 
          
          I'm obviously not gonna share the book because I don't want a load of ppl coming after me. 
          
          they say comparison is the thief of joy, but on this platform, it's the only thing that has kept me writing. I'm impulse writing this blog thingy and tbh idm. it's important I get my thoughts out there before I forget them.

ophelia_sage

I'm thinking of making this conversation board a sort of blog. I couldn't ever have a life interesting enough to report back so steadily, but it's a fun idea to mess around with. Plus, with authors on wattpad I always feel like there's this sort of, barrier? I'm not sure what to call it. Between them and the readers. I don't want that to exist between me and my readers. I'm very average and completely willing to engage in worthwhile conversations.
          
          So when did I start writing? It's hard to say. I used to write fairytales and such when I was about four, and it just progressed from there. I started using a laptop to write when I was eleven, before that I was just writing on Wattpad with my phone. 
          
          There's been a lot of people who influenced my writing. I was lucky to always be encouraged to keep writing. For the friends I have that enjoy reading, it's always been a pleasure for them to report back with their thoughts. Primarily my most loving critic Dathig. Who has been fantastic.
          
          My dad is the one who bought me the laptop in the first place. He stuck a little note inside, my memory fails me slightly but it was something similar to 'Happy Christmas, Keep writing and I'll be the first to buy all of your books, ' 
          
          I think I cried about it, knowing my dad was dyslexic and knowing that he definitely would take the time to read my books. But that always meant that the pressure was on. I needed to get writing, I needed to do something. 
          
          So when I'm not writing, or can't find the motivation to write- I get sad. Terribly sad. I think 'What if I never get anything done?' and I spiral. It's self-destructive in a sense. 
          
          Feel free to ask questions about me also. Or about my work. I guess from now on you'll find all the answers either here, or as replies to comments. 
          
          Wishing you guys all the best!

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Another chapter is out! Fantastic stuff by me if we're being honest. I've been so productive and tbh, I'm very proud of myself. I can be very self-critical. But I figure, as long as I'm doing something  I enjoy, I'm not doing too bad. 
          
          Give it a read! You won't regret it. (hopefully)

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Hey guys! We're nearly at the end of The Choice Of Love and tbh, it's making me emotional. I'm going to miss these characters so much! They're like my babies (which ig would make sense as i did create them but nvm that)
          
          if you haven't already i suggest you check it out! i hope you guys can connect with the story like i did. 
          
          stay safe my lovelies <3