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wow i haven't been on here in forever. last post i made was about my now gf and we have been together for over a year.
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asked to go to a festival by a girl but i had to decline </3 life is sad actually
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i love how every now and then, i become re-obsessed with some piece of media and can literally not stop thinking abt it or i will combust.
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i wonder if my hyperfixation is gonna last longer this time, ngl. i mean, i was rly into it then, but a lot of the work was on me for my self insert. this time, i'm working with rly just canon so like. idk if that's gonna be in my favor or not, since there's less of my creative focus on it, but more overall content. who's to say rly.
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it's literally the same obsession from last year, and while it's like. shifted left, it's more intense than ever bc i have literally nothing better going on in my life
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new pfp after so long o_o
something that i made for a personal project and NO i will not elaborate
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gawd it's been forever since i've logged into this
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not 2 b that person, but my crush said i was one of her favorite people and i have not been able 2 stop thinking abt it <3<3
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how r people relatively functional???? like, u aren't a disaster of a person, creating mess after mess, incapable of fixing a damn thing????? sounds unrealistic
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i don't know how many self insert characters i have to make for one show to be satisfied, but it's more than three.
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noooo not me creating a self insert character for *** ****** *** *** ***** *** that fits so perfectly into the canon that i literally cant stop thinking about in depth.
like. perhaps i decided to make this character * **** because having a ********* character would probably not work with this canon, but it's ok because i do *** *** ********.
but for real, rewriting the canon is fairly easy and established characters aren't even ooc for the most part. this all works out a little too well, almost as if i'm being contacted directly by myself from a parallel universe who's telling me "this is what the canon was here" or something, idk. might be a little far fetched.
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i am going to probably have a bit of trouble trying to compile all the traits that my chara has, because while i want my chara to be a well-developed and multifaceted character, having too many interests or skills is going to kind of y'know. be overwhelming.
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i've also been doing a bit of doodling to get down what my character looks like, and trying to get some outfits established. i have to figure out how to age my chara tho, otherwise this might be a little useless.
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i want to write out everything properly before i decide to like. post anything. i'll probably just post it directly to ao3 and see how well it's received on there before i decide to post it on here (which might seem a little backward bc self insert seems more acceptable on here, but like. that's the whole point.)
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idk how i do it sometimes, but i end up in being in the fandoms of things that i only indulged in ironically. and now i can't leave because i am genuinely obsessed. sigh.
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we did it with ***** *** ******** and ******** ******* *** (shit, might include ******), but now it's *** ****** *** and ***** ***. i am going stupid.