It wasn’t for the new friends
That’s what you think and it’s not true
It wasn’t because I wanted to make new friends and get away from you, or because I didn’t need or want to be around you anymore. That’s not it.
You should know that’s not it.
That’s not me, it never has, never will.
Maybe I explained myself wrong, maybe you understood wrong
I remind you, I repeatedly said I didn’t want us to stop being friends, I just thought we needed some time for ourselves considering everything that happened. It made sense to me, it still makes sense to me, but you took it in a way completely different.
I haven’t changed, I’m still the same dorky and nerdy me, the only thing that’s new, is that now I only give what I receive. So, just to put it out there, IT WASNT FOR THE NEW FRIENDS, it was for us, even if it doesn’t seem like it to you, it was. I wanted to still talk to you, be there for you, be your friend, but now you closed off even more, you put your walls up again to me, and to be honest, I’m tired. I really did try my best, I’m sorry if it wasn’t enough for you, and I’m sorry if I hurt you, that’s the thing that leaves me awake at night, I’m truly terribly sorry if I hurt you, but I had to tell you how I felt. Don’t judge my choices if you don’t understand my reasons.
P.S I still love you, you probably hate me, and I’m going to have to learn to live with that.
