Bee Wild

just re-read your book and started crying not only because of the book but the memories!!! love you xxx

To the none of you wondering--
             I'm as straight as a protractor.

Time to be a whiney bitch y'all. 

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@laughatpigs You know I love you boo. As soon as I get there we'll take all the aestheticly pleasing photos you'd like, to make up for my 'rudeness'. 
           All the love, 
               Lewie.

It's sad boi hours y'all. Get ready.

Sorry for the rant. 

When my teacher was going over the homework today she called on me. I answered of course, but my heart was going faster than it should ever be. When she restated what I said and stared to go over it I thought I was wrong. I started to freak out and shake although thankfully I didn't cry. I freaked out so bad the girl sitting next to me asked if I was okay with a weird expression and told me she got the same answer that I'm not wrong. I knew I wasn't wrong being as I did the problem seven times over and she had the same answer, but I still flipped. Is that normal? Do people do that?

I had a panic attack because I walked into my school and there were too many people. That's never happened before. I had a panic attack one the first day of school and I don't know why I did. I had a panic attack because I left my civics assignment in my locker and was scared to ask the teacher if I could get it. I had a panic attack because I feel incompetent in my classes. I feel like everyone is better at everything than I am. It's only the 2nd and a half week of school and I'm already having anxiety freak outs. Anytime before this I've never had a panic attack, but now it's a  constant thing that freaks me out. I start to cry, my hands shake, and I can barely breathe. In class I have to put my head down and try to calm myself. I hate it. I've always had an underlining anxiety, but this year it just burst out in full swing.