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nobody is ever on this account, thus i will use it. hello myself, i think i haate evrything baout me rn. i just lost everything that makes my. mom proud. i have no extracurriculars, i lost the club, and i got an 88 on my spanish test. a grade is never enough unless its a 100, and if it is i still need the extra credit. my first psat i got a 1210, thats good right? i was genuinly happy, but they expected more. this was a dissapointment, i am a dissapointment, this isnt anything, all this work is nothing, why cant i concentrate, why cant i handle this, why cant i fiucking comfort my friends, why cant i be my sister, my sister is perfect isnt she, everything she does is right. she gets her way, the ideal child, why am i such a patetic sentitive ass loser. why cant i fucking do anyting right im in accelerated mat im going to load so many APs onto my course scedule just so that I WILL burnout and i dont know why, i dont want to do this. im never going to get anywhhere in life. i dont want to, i just want to get somewhere, i dont even need to get somewhere, just high enough that my mom will be okay with it. why am i not fucking good enough, why do i have tpo do so much. there are people getting pregnent, going to parties, hurting others and skipping school. i do othing like thhat, why the fuck am i not enough. what am i missing. well im missing a lot so thats understandable. anyways, look back at this and cringe ig. :/
