painfullyshy

Hello. I am back. Let's write. Shall we?

painfullyshy

I have been gone for such  a long time. I don't even know if anyone is reading this.
          But I am here. If anyone wants to read the stories,  maybe then I will continue. 
          To give a heads up.
          Things had been hard for a couple of  years. Especially the last few months. Have lost a lot of people.
          Then there was this guy I really liked and I thought he really liked me too. But well he didn't. He was probably just bored. Everything he told me was probably to just sleep with me. Then maybe he realised he won't be able to so easily. So he started ghosting me. All the things he said about liking me, missing me and other things were utter lies. And then one day he suddenly said, he can't do relationships. And that was it. He completely started ignoring me and it was like I do not exist. You know. It's not okay. But I tried my best. I can't do anything anymore. I will be sad. But. I hope he has a good life and is happy. I wish him all luck and joy.  It's okay. I don't know what happened. I just hope he gets whatever he wants. I believe I need to give the world positivity and that's only what I will do.

painfullyshy

Hi. Well. On other platforms people know me so I don't have the courage to say this. But here I say. 
          I have been going through a lot lately. And sometimes talking to a professional helps. Talking to anyone who understands help. So I am proud of myself for not giving up and continuing living. For not giving into depression. To not self harming myself. To not starving myself. Trying to be okay.
          In my blood by Shawn has yet again helped me. So thank you. 
          
          I just want to say to anyone who is there. I will listen.  I am here for you.  No matter what.