wontlookdown
Hello
painxpeace
painxpeace
and the ones giving chase were chased
painxpeace
im sick.
painxpeace
yeahm, i got problems, full stop. standing on the brink, toes out. gotta let go, i was the ice beneath these skates, now i'm the rust in the wheels, resisting your pull and your push. i got a home and i know what i gotta do
painxpeace
papers out, i sketch my cage. loops & lines. mountains i built to climb, instead skidded backwards at double speed. i feel the breathe of madness on my neck, telling to relax into it's embrace.
painxpeace
i know of no other home
painxpeace
i dance on the stage of worlds, one step closer to your side.
painxpeace
not addicted enough
painxpeace
how do you suppose to walk the dangerous path in the garden of this life, when you can't even walk the path in your garden, one step here & one there.
painxpeace
remember, i once ran up to roof in winter when it was raining, bare-chest & begged God to take this depression away.
painxpeace
remember, the core, the rawest form of me, will want to escape. the voice muffled will encourage
painxpeace
i am picking up a storm
painxpeace
in the silence,
my hands become gloves.
whose fingerprints were there
on the axe that chopped me up
last night ?
i shall close my eyes now,
and take it all.
painxpeace
who's there, but me ?
my thoughts were kites in careless hands,
and i suffered the thread wounds.
now, i shall fly the kite
and suffer the wounds.
i wonder,
will something come anew ?