pandartist_

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Happy early birthday

Thanks for the follow!

... I Have 50 followers and I don’t even have a book... wth thx guys 

... I’m officially out of middle school now... I’m having mixed emotions

My grandpa was taken by coronavirus on the 9th (on Tuesday) he had diabetes, high blood sugar already, so when he got coronavirus, it was just too much on his body and he had a hard time breathing, eventually in the hospital he had a stroke... they gave him a couple days to live, but death decided to take him on the day the stroke happened. Idk why I’m telling y’all this, I guess I just needed to vent this out to know that this is real... I didn’t even get to say goodbye, he was in Texas while I’m in Washington, they didn’t let family in the hospital, even tho all of them have it (coronavirus) too, so they didn’t get to say bye either... I never straight forwardly told him that I loved him... I regret not taking advantage of the time that I had with him here with us... I’m fucking crying now at 4am on a Friday snuggling my cat typing this out. I hope y’all are doing better than I am, cause honestly I feel numb, I just want to feel something, anything, pain, a hug, or even a pat on the back... idk if I can handle everything that is going on in my life rn, I just want it to end. It’s all overwhelming and I just want it all to end. I really hope nobody has to go through what I am rn cause I have a lot more going on at home and internally. I know that some people out there probably could have it worse than me, but I just feel like shit rn, this is just too much to handle for me, I’m just weak like that... thank u anyone who read this all the way through, I’m sorry I took 5-10 minutes out of ur life u probably will never get back... thank u anybody who even cares... I doubt nobody but my friends irl will even click on this notif to actually read this through and respond... I just feel empty rn, I’m always wearing a mask to cover my emptiness. I hope you have a great rest of the week, thx for taking ur time to read this ❤️✌

Guys, spread the word, this is next level hate shit. I’m crying rn, I’m an ally to the LGBTQ+ community and I feel for them rn, spread the word guys, this is a next level hater
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/187074472-important-please-read-this

Ahahahahaaaa....
          
          I kinda knew nobody knew/remembered what’s so special about this day for me....
          
          
          Fuck this shit I’m just gonna tell y’all... sorry for the profanity but I’m also on my period and PMS is getting to me, but it’s myyyyy
          
          
          
          BIRTHDAY!!! Yaaaay I guess... haha yup it’s my birthday, not like anybody knew/remembered ‍♀️

It’s a little late for this, but happy Mother’s Day! I made breakfast and 2 paintings for my mum and my brothers colored in a coloring page that says “If I had a flower for each time I thought of my mom I could walk in my garden forever”, so ya we had fun drinking boba tea from BobaLust because we’re dying from the heat...

Oh and HAPPY INTERNATIONAL FIREFIGHTERS DAY!! WE APPRECIATE ALL FIREFIGHTERS HARD WORK TODAY! Wear a blue and red ribbon out in public to show appreciation!