Knee Breaking Hours

How do I... How do I get people irl to call me by any pronouns and not just she/her without coming out to them... it's not... It's not possible, but... it should be.

Shout out to Ouran High School Host Club for making me finally realize that I am Agender Afab and go by any pronouns, but mainly She/her because that is what I am used to. Truly the goat. Defined a generation of genderqueer people

Living in different time zones is so frustrating sometimes, because like, I'll be trying to congratulate friends (specifically here ones I am not very close with (YET)) on great personal achievements and to them it looks like I'm stalking them, replying to their personal conversation page twelve hours late. I'm not weird, my body just cannot stay up past twelve im sorry and you posted it at 12:01. Then my dumbass crippling social anxiety cranks itself up and I start wondering if it's okay to tell a person they are loved and apreciated and kind and loveable and so sweet and- FUCK ten hours after they were insecure over something. This was too long, anyway. Love y'all, hope you're doing great, and just know wherever you are now is crucial in order to get to the you that you want to be. <3

Why are most of my vocal stims complete fucking sentences? like sure, I have some normal ones like the trash can from date everything saying "om nom nom" and james charles saying "hYELLO!" real weird, which are easy to play off in real situations if i forget myself and my surroundings, but suddenly everyone is looking at me when I interrupt someone else's completely normal monologue by saying "He can have a little feminization... as a treat." out of nowhere

POV: you put on a pair of boys swim trunks and expirience gender euphoria for the first time ever

Sometimes I'll message my friends something they might perceive as weird, just because it encapsulates emotions when I say it, not language. They don't understand, and I don't expect them to. Somehow, that's the worst part.
          
          Does that make sense?

I feel like I'll blink and five months will pass, and I'll forget I'm even on here.

GUESS WHO'S GOING TO GIRLS VOLLEYBALL CITY CHAMPIONSHIPS TOMORROW!!

My friend and I came up with a list of sexuality's corresponding ice cream flavours... for some reason? and uh, I wanted to share. there are... no biases, obviously.
          
          Vanilla= Sapphic/fin
          chocolate= male attraction
          spiderman= Bi
          superhero= Pan
          pistachio= Gay male
          cookiesncreme= Non Binary
          bubblegum= Trans
          Cookie dough = genderfluid
          Strawberry = lesbos
          Black cherry = ace
          Mint chocco chip = straight
          Salted Caramel = Aro
          Neopolitan = Poly
          
          any ideas to add or differing opinions?

I came out to my mom yesterday. Thats it. Thats the announcement.