it's been a long, long time since i last updated any of you, and i'm sorry for that. this has been a long time coming, but i'm finally ready to share what has been plaguing my mind for the last year.
after the first uk lockdown, i fell into a deep depression. my grades slipped, my friendships ripped apart, and sometimes, i couldn't bring myself to attend at all. i stopped writing and picked up art, but that was all that i had. i was suffocating.
nowadays, i'm doing better. but this past year has given me a lot of reflection time. not all of it was positive, and a lot of it was amidst extremely dark, empty moments, but now that i'm past that, i can honestly say that i still want to share my writing. i've picked it up a little again, and i'm excited.
but this account isn't a place for that.
i considered leaving wattpad behind for good. after six years, i can't honestly say i'm satisfied with what i've gotten out of it. i'm privileged to have the thousands of reads and hundreds of votes, but it's tiresome when that number crawls up, yet i see stories from writers far less experienced than i soaring. while i'm grateful for the readers i garnered, and perhaps i sound ungrateful, but as a platform, wattpad has done nothing to help me. i'm tired. at one point, i was so tired i considered deleting my account and disappearing onto another platform. but i'm not. not entirely, at least.
part of me is still tied to wattpad. i still want to share my stories with its readers. and thus, i've made a new account. i will be migrating there with all future works, while leaving the past ones here for the time being.
i hope that this time is better. see you guys at @moonandbouquet
--mahi