parkpotaeto
Just saw a comment saying missing him extra today, and it finally hit me that he won't be here for almost two years
It’s only been 5 days, how even!
parkpotaeto
parkpotaeto
One enlisted yesterday,
another tomorrow.
Wow, what an incredible today!
As if this day were meant to brace the heart for the impact.
parkpotaeto
Some stories just ruin your nervous system.
I'm left with regret, anxiousness and confusion
parkpotaeto
What is normal anymore? Just one gentle day without the fear of it all unraveling.
parkpotaeto
I don’t even know what I’m chasing anymore:
the plot or the feelings.
parkpotaeto
How did everything turn so prickly?
Or was it always like this,
and I only just started feeling?
parkpotaeto
Why am I burning everywhere at once?
parkpotaeto
The same proof, on repeat. Not worth it.
studio17
Happy New Year! Have a great and blessed year ahead. :)
parkpotaeto
@studio17 Hey! I'm great.Life has been testing my limits lately. It’s been a while. How have you been?
studio17
@parkpotaeto Hello! How you been?
parkpotaeto
What have I gotten myself into!
parkpotaeto
@aqunoa Thanks for reaching out. I’m not uncomfortable at all, and you can reach out whenever you feel like it. No matter what my circumstances are, I tend to blame myself and wonder if I didn’t work hard enough. I never complain about anyone else, only myself.
studio17
@parkpotaeto Someone told me once that this world is unfair to everyone, and that what you deserve, your dreams and justice will find you. I don’t know if this helps. (Also, if me replying or being here is in anyway an inconvenience or uncomfortable to you, do let me know.)
parkpotaeto
I was completely devastated today. The life I want for myself felt within reach, yet impossibly far away. I crave it, and the ache is overwhelming.