pastelgyu

i think i’ve finally hit a total wall tonight, and i just need to vent to people who might actually understand. thank you if you are willing to just read this whole thing. lately, i've been feeling so disillusioned by the absolute rat race of life. it feels like passion is a luxury i'm not actually allowed to afford. we start out with genuine dreams of what we want to become, but the pressure to secure a future, make money, and survive just strips all the meaning out of it. it makes you feel like you're trapped in a machine where your self-satisfaction doesn't matter at all... only the end result does. i'm staring down a massive, high stakes turning point this weekend, and the fear of failing is making me want to just give up on what i actually love and settle for a completely different, safer career path just to escape the loop. is it even possible to hold onto your passion in a system that forces you to constantly compromise for security, or does everyone eventually just surrender to the rat race? what a world we live in. i honestly feel so broken and lost right now, and sunday is my exam.

LegswideforJay

ever need to say anything or simply just wanna vent hit me up ok I love you so much remi you are the best, please never doubt yourself and don't give up
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LegswideforJay

@pastelgyu babes I'll just say this thing honestly I know you must be working hard for your exam and that's fs, we don't really have the outcome in our hands do we? that's why we leave it to a greater authority which is god
          	  
          	  if there was nothing valuable in you, maybe life wouldn't be testing you this much, also you don't have to live up to everyone's expectations babes, everyone has their own ups and downs and if something happened it definitely happened for a reason, maybe for you to learn a lesson because it will help you in the future do not worry
          	  
          	  your parents will doubt you, and your friends could throw taunts at you, even if they mean no harm but never take it to the heart, keep working hard and prove all of them wrong, I know you can do it babes, make your bloodline proud of you and most importantly make yourself proud
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blstry

you'll be fine remi, don't worry. it's definitely not easy and this feeling probably won't go away easily either but you just have to remember and trust yourself. just do what you do best and don't think about anything else after that. i'm here if you wanna talk <3
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pastelgyu

i think i’ve finally hit a total wall tonight, and i just need to vent to people who might actually understand. thank you if you are willing to just read this whole thing. lately, i've been feeling so disillusioned by the absolute rat race of life. it feels like passion is a luxury i'm not actually allowed to afford. we start out with genuine dreams of what we want to become, but the pressure to secure a future, make money, and survive just strips all the meaning out of it. it makes you feel like you're trapped in a machine where your self-satisfaction doesn't matter at all... only the end result does. i'm staring down a massive, high stakes turning point this weekend, and the fear of failing is making me want to just give up on what i actually love and settle for a completely different, safer career path just to escape the loop. is it even possible to hold onto your passion in a system that forces you to constantly compromise for security, or does everyone eventually just surrender to the rat race? what a world we live in. i honestly feel so broken and lost right now, and sunday is my exam.

LegswideforJay

ever need to say anything or simply just wanna vent hit me up ok I love you so much remi you are the best, please never doubt yourself and don't give up
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LegswideforJay

@pastelgyu babes I'll just say this thing honestly I know you must be working hard for your exam and that's fs, we don't really have the outcome in our hands do we? that's why we leave it to a greater authority which is god
            
            if there was nothing valuable in you, maybe life wouldn't be testing you this much, also you don't have to live up to everyone's expectations babes, everyone has their own ups and downs and if something happened it definitely happened for a reason, maybe for you to learn a lesson because it will help you in the future do not worry
            
            your parents will doubt you, and your friends could throw taunts at you, even if they mean no harm but never take it to the heart, keep working hard and prove all of them wrong, I know you can do it babes, make your bloodline proud of you and most importantly make yourself proud
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blstry

you'll be fine remi, don't worry. it's definitely not easy and this feeling probably won't go away easily either but you just have to remember and trust yourself. just do what you do best and don't think about anything else after that. i'm here if you wanna talk <3
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pastelgyu

this message may be offensive 
the typa shit i first see when i open youtube after banging my head on my books because i hate physics :
          
          https://youtube.com/shorts/McBS43NDso4?si=ePZurykUGUp-wM5g
          HEEPRESSION AT ITS PEAK EVERYONE HAS GONE MAD BYE

thepotatogremlin

@pastelgyu scarred for life.
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pastelgyu

and mental help.
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pastelgyu

okay i need sleep.
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pastelgyu

just 8 days left and i'm going insane... after all the hardwork i put in for a year, if i still fail, i'll literally turn into a dinosaur and eat up everyone :)
          
          anyways, i don't have the time to comment on everyone's mbs, so please do add me in your dts, especially for afs, i'll be checking them out after a week <3

pastelgyu

꒰ @darlyes ꒱ ꒰ @LegswideforJay ꒱  thank youuu i hope so T^T
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darlyes

@pastelgyu  do your best rems <3
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LegswideforJay

@pastelgyu you got this bb!!
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