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I don’t have time for a pronoun/gender crisis
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Like I could probably be fine with she/her in certain instances and with specific people but idk
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I really need to know who approves the ads that are put on this app bc I’ve two that should not be here
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I actually feel bad for anyone who’s seen the two ads bc both of them are uncomfortable for very different reasons
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Like I’m pretty sure both of them have the potential to be super upsetting to people and it’s like why were these approved
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Missing internet friends who you didn’t know much about is wild bc it’s like,,I know your name and a few small things about you, that’s it
But I still have times where I miss you and wish we could have one last conversation
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Recently realized that they never actually saw my last message to them on insta which kinda makes that worse
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I think a reason why I still miss them so much is bc we didn’t really have a proper last conversation? Like a lot of my other internet friends I casually drifted away from but we had like conversations where we were like “hey I miss you I hope you’re okay” but with this person that didn’t happen
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Today I was thinking about internet friends I had who disappeared without a trace then I realized I’m 99% sure I may be that friend bc in 2016 I deleted a Instagram account that I made a bunch of friends on and I don’t think I ever told them my other account so sorry to sky, Violet and literally everyone who I was friends with on that account
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Tbf I think I think I had stopped talking to like all of them when I deleted (we casually drifted apart that’s what I mean-
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I wish the filter tag on wattpad wasn’t just for the home page like I just wanna read cute viktuuri fluff get that mpreg outta here this is why I use ao3
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Also tho what’s the point if it only filters stuff on your home page??? It should also filter certain tags when your looking for fanfic??? That’s why ao3 is superior bc u can filter tags when searching
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Why do people still write student x teacher that stuff is just weird and creepy and idc if the student is 18 or older there’s still this creepy dynamic
You know what people SHOULD write?? Teacher x teacher that shit is GOOD there’s not enough of it
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Missing internet friends who you haven’t spoken to in years is ~wild~ bc like the ones I think of either are inactive/hard to find on insta or completely disappeared from the internet so it’s like,,,idk I wonder if they feel the same way? Or if I don’t cross their mind as often as they cross mine? Idk
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Sorry I suddenly had more to add also this realization of “wow I wonder what they’d think of present me” bc for example all my internet friends from 2012-2014 have this version of me in their heads and idk if it’s changed but I haven’t spoken to some of my internet friends since 2014 so they’re just forever stuck with that version of me even though 2014 me is a INCREDIBLY different person from 2020 me so in a way 2014 me still exists out there (when really she shouldn’t) like bro in 2014 I thought I was cishet and six years later I’m definitely not cis and I’m also very gay so
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Also bc u have this realization that u have no idea what their life is like I guess?? Like one of my friends from 2012 could have dropped out of school, could be in a relationship Idk it’s weird I guess