max

why dont i get the same amount of love i give? i put all my time into you. i left the only person who was keeping me sane because you manipulated me into doing so. i didnt want to. i loved them, and what about you? if i did the same to you? what wouldve you done? you wouldve gone out and made my life a miserable hell because for some reason you just can end something without someone getting hurt in the end. i hope you get well soon, and mature in the end. and when it comes to the point where you completely stop interacting with me, i hope you realize what youve done to me. (i love this silly little wattpad thing bc the person this is abt wont see it)

i sometimes wonder if im anyones first pick. afterall, ive gone silent to practically everyone i know for a week and still none have reached out. do any of my friends *truely* like me? or is it a one sided friendship and im the only one who wants it to continue? what if i just disappear? would anyone come looking? its not like theyd care, would they?

idk if they like me anymore

im on the verge of relapsing although ive been clean for 5 months. im trying to talk myself out of it but im so tense and just want to cut the feelings away and feel free again. i hate recovery so much.

gonna kms just got waitlisted for eras tour

my brother js stole my phone and looked through it and now hes saying that when they go to fair thats hes going to get jumped. JUST DONT GO TO THE FAIR LFMAOAO‼️

my brother and his gf are mad at me right now because i told someone that her brother was a shitty guy. for context the guy had been talking to this girl, and behind her back, fucked another girl so now they dont like this guy. im friends with the guys sister so i told her that her brother treats girls shitty. i think the girl told her brother and now he threatening to jump my brother and his gf. the shittiest part is that i have to hang out with all 3 (my bro, gf and the girl that got cheated) tomorrow so wish me luck igg

i want to go back to school because my life feels as if it has no purpose without it in my life

guess whos birthday it is

i remember my first alex g song being 16 mirrors. i thrived off of that shit for a whole 7 months at my lowest. now it triggers me into my greatest comfort. it hurts but feels good at the same time.