life update; saw a psychiatrist the other day. he told me to journal everything, especially my thoughts. it’s okay i guess. being a NEET is exhausting. im tired. i wish i was normal like every other 20 year old. i wish i could have a job, go to college, have friends, go out properly without being anxious or paranoid, etc. if i had a time machine and went back to my birth, would i leave it be or would i make sure i was dead? i genuinely dont know.