PAYTON'SWIFEYFORLIFEY🌷

guys im gonna edit and update my book so im gonna change some things so you might  wanna read it agin because its gonna be differnt

Fuck you Amazon for putting my account on hold talking me I have to wait 24 hours and that it might cancel all my orders and delete them

Did you get your phone back bestie

should i update my book

people say your pretty when you have cofidence but the minute you show your broken and hurt your ugly just seeking attenion and a waste a space that noone cares about but they couldnt see you were hurting when you were cofindent even tho you may look happy doesnt mean you are just cause you walk around with a fake smile and laugh and pretend your fine doesnt mean you are you let everyone talk about there emotions but you dont talk about your own cause you dont wanna bring others down or make them feel pity for you and the people you do open up to just ened up leaving you anyway so you dont talk to anyone and you have a couseker but the minute you say how you really feel they try and help you cause its something wrong with you when you didnt ask for help and now your being forced to talk about your feelings to a stranger so you dont tell them anything and  you just hold it in and cry youself to sleep at night right or is this just me

i stopped talking and opening up to people when i was five cause that when i realized no one gave 2 fucks or shit about me they dont care or wanna listen  they expect you to say your fine cause thats what they wanna hear they dont and arent gonna listen cause they dont care

when you wish you had someone to talk to but everyone thats suppose to care just keeps leaving your life

i litteray stoped eating weeks ago when i lost the will to live and couldnt take much more i lost everything

someone just kill me already or ill do it myself cause idk how much more of life i can take

i never knew it would hurt this bad but ouch just tried to give this girl a chance cause she said he was good and its what he wanted and all i want is fir hiim to be happy but seeing them kiss just broke my heart intoa million oieces cause the boy im in love with just is gone he is hers now and i kinda dont know what to do it feels like everything is closing in and the world is coming to a stop the way it hurts i just  wanna die to make the feeling of being numb and the pain and t the aching in my heart to just go away i thought i would be able to handle it and be happy for him and  am but it hurts like hell and ive never had somethng hurt so much in my life and it like i cant stop crying and the tears never stop i want him do bad and had hope that if i didnt give up an fhad hope that one day he would be mine but idk what to think in this moment i think im ready to die pls anybody if your reading this help cause idk what to do it justhurts and uhurts and when i think all the pain is over more comes @paytonstowel