peachy_jkoo

@prettae_95’s account is gone along with her stories and i want to cry...

peachy_jkoo

you know something weird? i tend to hide my pain from the people around me because i don't want to seem weak. growing up, my parents made it seem as if crying made you weak, and i cry all the time, i'm very sensitive. so whenever i cry, i tell myself that crying makes me weak, most times i end up crying more, sometimes i end up sitting there, emotionless, empty, thinking about how i have no one to complain to, no one to hug while i cry. i realize it now, but growing up, the way my family showed that they loved me was through money, it still is... sort of. my relationship with my parents is better than before, but we still argue often, and the way they show me love is by giving me money, it's never them saying, "i love you," or hugging me, and not to mention whenever i'm with a group of friends, usually while we're in class working, i hear everyone talking to each other, they're all smart, intelligent, even. but me? i'm not smart. i can't do anything special. all i do is complain. if i were one of my friends, i wouldn't be able to put up with myself, so i've started wondering if i should distance myself from them... it's not like they need me... right? anyways, i'm just being annoying, ignore me, i just wanted to let out my feelings. :) have a nice day. <3

peachy_jkoo

p.s. this is 1275 characters, lol.
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