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Maddie’s song (Gabenath’s daughter). This is how she eventually got knocked up…
          
          Haven't heard from you in a couple of months, but I'm out right now, and I'm all fucked up… And I'm right here with all my friends, I know we're done, I know we're through, but, God, when I look at you…
          
          Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right? Yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two people reconnect? "I only see him as a friend," the biggest lie I ever said, oh yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two people reconnect? I only see him as a friend, I just tripped and fell into his bed… Now I'm gettin' in the car, wreckin' all my plans I know I should stop, but I can't and I told my friends I was asleep… But I never said where…In his sheets! 
          
          Yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two people reconnect? "I only see him as a friend," the biggest lie I ever said. Oh yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two people reconnect? I only see him as a friend, I just tripped and fell into his bed… 
          
          If you ask Maddie, she’ll say he means nothing to her. After all, she never even told her parents he was the father of her baby. Yup… I will create a one-shot book in a near future. And Madeline Agreste definitely deserves a few one-shots about herself. I simply loved her character and troubled she was. Teenage pregnancy was so fun to write, don’t ask me why, it just was. 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/397607659?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=penguinbuddy_

Hello everyone!
          
          If you ever have any questions about certain things I’ve written, feel free to ask. Specific scenes, certain dialogues, characters, or character povs, from any story I’ve written. I can answer in a deeper meaning. What I meant to express with each sentence written or what I intended to convey. 
          
          Let me know…
          
          Also, if you haven’t read all my stories and want a more in depth synopsis or light spoilers, feel free to ask. 

Songs that remind me of Gabenath:
          Back To You is so 'I'm Sorry I Still Love You' coded
          I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to When I'm lying close to someone else
          You're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it If I could do it all again I know I'd go back to you I know I'd go back to you I know I'd go back to you We never got it right
          Playing and replaying old conversations
          Overthinking every word and I hate it
          'Cause it's not me 'cause it's not me)
          And what's the point in hiding?
          Everybody knows we got unfinished business
          And I'll regret it if I didn't say
          This isn't what it could be (isn't what it could be)
          You could break my heart in two But when it heals, it beats for you I know it's forward, but it's true
          I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to When I'm lying close to someone else
          You're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it
          I know I'd go back to you I know I'd go back to you
          I'd go back to you l'd go back to you
          What was there wasn't sure
          But I'd go back to you I know l'd go back to you You can break my heart in two But when it heals, it beats for you I know it's forward, but it's true Won't lie, l'd go back to you You know, my thoughts are running loose It's just a thing you make me do
          And I could fight, but what's the use?
          I know I'd go back to you
          
          Just read this story with this song playing on the background and you’ll see what I mean…
          
          P.S. this is my favorite story I’ve ever written. It has my whole heart. 
          
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/376309079?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=penguinbuddy_

Songs that remind me of Gabenath: 
          
          Back To You is so ‘I’m Sorry I Still Love You’ coded
          
          I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to
          When I'm lying close to someone else
          You're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it
          If I could do it all again
          I know I'd go back to you
          I know I'd go back to you
          I know I'd go back to you
          We never got it right
          Playing and replaying old conversations
          Overthinking every word and I hate it
          'Cause it's not me ('cause it's not me)
          And what's the point in hiding?
          Everybody knows we got unfinished business
          And I'll regret it if I didn't say
          This isn't what it could be (isn't what it could be)
          You could break my heart in two
          But when it heals, it beats for you
          I know it's forward, but it's true
          I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to
          When I'm lying close to someone else
          You're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it
          If I could do it all again
          I know I'd go back to you
          I know I'd go back to you
          I'd go back to you
          I'd go back to you
          What was there wasn't sure
          But I'd go back to you
          I know I'd go back to you
          You can break my heart in two
          But when it heals, it beats for you
          I know it's forward, but it's true
          Won't lie, I'd go back to you
          You know, my thoughts are running loose
          It's just a thing you make me do
          And I could fight, but what's the use?
          I know I'd go back to you
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/376309079?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=penguinbuddy_

I wrote this as a way to get back into the habit of writing. I’ve had a GabeNath fic living in my head for months now, but I haven’t been able to bring myself to start it. Hopefully that changes soon, and I can finally share it with you all.
          
          Wish me luck…
          
          Thank you so much for reading !
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/410706494?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=penguinbuddy_

I have a new Gabenath fic in mind. It’s been floating in my head for months and months. But it’s so hard for me to get started. I really want to but I can’t! 

‘Red’ is so ‘I’m Sorry I Still Love You’ coded: 
          
          Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
          Tell myself it's time now gotta let go
          But moving on from him is impossible
          When I still see it all in my head
          In burning red
          Burning, it was red
          Oh, losing him was blue, like I'd never known
          Missing him was dark gray, all alone
          Forgetting him was like trying to know
          Somebody you never met
          'Cause loving him was red
          Yeah, yeah, red
          Burning red
          
          Read the chapters, specifically the Gabenath flashbacks and you’ll see what I mean. And I have one more song that is this entire story coded, but it’s not Taylor Swift…
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/376309079?
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Evermore is so ‘Vengeance Is Mine’ coded 
          
          And I was catching my breath
          Floors of a cabin creaking under my step
          And I couldn't be sure
          I had a feeling so peculiar
          This pain wouldn't be for
          Evermore
          Evermore (evermore)
          Evermore
          This pain wouldn't be for evermore (evermore)
          Evermore
          
          Let it play in the background while you read the chapters where Nathalie and Betterfly are in the forest or the cabin, and you’ll see what I mean. 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/388603952?
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‘Where The Heart Remains’ is so ‘My Tears Ricochet’ coded:
          
          And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake?
          Cursing my name, wishing I stayed
          Look at how my tears ricochet
          And I can go anywhere I want
          Anywhere I want, just not home
          And you can aim for my heart, go for blood
          But you would still miss me in your bones
          And I still talk to you (when I'm screaming at the sky)
          And when you can't sleep at night (you hear my stolen lullabies)
          
          Read this story with that song playing in the background, and you'll see what I mean. Especially those Gabenath scenes.
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/397607659?
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And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake?
          Cursing my name, wishing I stayed
          Look at how my tears ricochet
          And I can go anywhere I want
          Anywhere I want, just not home
          And you can aim for my heart, go for blood
          But you would still miss me in your bones
          And I still talk to you (when I'm screaming at the sky)
          And when you can't sleep at night (you hear my stolen lullabies)
          
          ‘Where The Heart Remains’ x ‘My Tears Ricochet’