hello to anyone who is reading my wattpad or is wondering why i'm here and acting like i'm a big deal or anything. the truth is, i'm actually not new to wattpad at all. in my eight year of school, i thought up an idea about writing a story about a girl who had the same problems that i was facing. instead of making her all awkward and all anti-social as the title of the book suggests , aka, "Socially Screwed," this girl, Paris, grew brave and it made me realize in my life how very different my character and i actually had become. in my eight year, i had faced many difficult problems and they were all within myself. my character, paris, was braver, she was smarter, and she had gotten the guy. i was still locking myself in my bedroom, reading the same poems i had read yesterday, and sitting in front of a computer where my number of views didn't make me congratulate myself but rather make me feel like i wasn't good enough at all. so i ended up deleting, "Socially Screwed." no one remembered who perksofbeingfree was and no one continued to read books that i was putting out, because people loved socially screwed, i loved socially screwed. and when i deleted it, i realize that i was suppose to use paris as inspiration to become stronger. i needed to follow how she stood up to people and i needed to stand up to myself. but the book is deleted? no, it's not. i wrote the book, i imagined what was happening, no one knows the book the better than i. the book did not bring me down, but it impowered me. i was not socially screwed, but i was socially confused, and the only way that i could be sure of all and myself was to face that i needed to get better. so i excepted help ninth year, tenth year, and i'm continuing to get better. because it's a long road and it's hard and it's scary but it would be unwise for me not to follow it. because everything happens for a reason. i found my reason in sickness and then i found a strength that i called m y s e l f
