Depression isn't just sadness, it's numbness. It's the feeling of falling but not like falling in in love. It's like falling endlessly into darkness. Try as you might no matter how much you cling to the walls of the hole you've dug you can't even slow your self down. The worst part is you built barriers to keep people away from you and to keep you away from people. These barriers are huge only certain people break them and it's rare for them too. Many times someone breaks down your barriers and you trust them fully and then they break you down as well. So it isn't until someone breaks down those walls you built and grabs your hand that you can even start getting better. Even after you have that person that will help you it is a long process and you'll never be the same. You are still being dragged down by your thoughts and people's words. So you try to get better you want to get better but many times people think you aren't trying. People say if you don't help yourself they can't help you that's like saying you wouldn't help someone walk because they can't walk so why should you help. The person you try to help is slowly getting better just by you trying.
A/N: mental illness should not be glorified it should not become common. People shouldn't be ridiculed for having a mental illness. Yet all of these things happen. Please if you are feeling depressed or having bad thoughts or even just struggling with anything don't be afraid to reach out. Reach out to a hotline, parents, friends, therapists, counsellors, or even me. I my self have problems with anxiety attacks so don't be afraid to talk to me. Thank you for reading this I'm sorry I've been gone for so long.
