perseus_parker

guys i won't be active for the holidays starting tmr due to traveling and christmas lol. happy holidays guys!
          	-ellis

l0wk3y2006

@perseus_parker happy holidays!! hope you have funnn!!<33
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StrikerTheCrow

@perseus_parker  Enjoy the holidays:D and be careful on the road for gods sake (we don't get snow over here and ppl are having car crashes like maniacs :skull:)
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perseus_parker

guys i won't be active for the holidays starting tmr due to traveling and christmas lol. happy holidays guys!
          -ellis

l0wk3y2006

@perseus_parker happy holidays!! hope you have funnn!!<33
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StrikerTheCrow

@perseus_parker  Enjoy the holidays:D and be careful on the road for gods sake (we don't get snow over here and ppl are having car crashes like maniacs :skull:)
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perseus_parker

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small vent
          
          my mental health seems fine but it really isn't. i've def been through worse times but i feel like im trying to make my mental state worse. i cut again but not for the right reasons and now i have a lot of anxiety since someone might notice my cuts. i'm also having a LOT of anxiety with texting 'them', they were busy bc of wrestling stuff and i fear i'm not going to be able to text or call them at all bc of traveling for christmas and i don't have my own phone (im not like 12, my mom's just really strict with that sort of thing) yet so there's like no chance i'll be able to talk to them at all over the holidays which i REALLY want to. it's gotten to the point with them that texting isn't enough and i need to be in their arms which im not sure they can provide. not just bc we're long distance but im not sure if they have the same intentions that i do. im looking for a cuddly, comforting partner from them but i think they see me as a friend with benefits and barely anything more. i know there's smth there but don't know if they'll ever ask me to be their partner, but ig i should enjoy talking to them regardless of what the future has in store, or maybe i don't want to waste my time on someone who's wasting mine. FUCK I HATE MY ANXIETY

StrikerTheCrow

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@perseus_parker  (srry for late ass response I fell asleep I should probably be sleeping rn but fuck it)
            
            Yeah I can definitely how you can fear that from your side. Maybe try asking just small guide questions for yourself?
            Like:
            
            "Ok so like what would be the first thing we do be honest"
            
            Maybe put it in a way you seem like you're joking? 
            
            Look that's something you could do by all accounts but I think is better if you are honest with them and hey not even what you guys are if that's what you're gonna go with but ask
            
            "What do you me view me as?" Maybe try not to make the atmosphere so tense is less direct than my first wording in my honest opinions.
            
            For me it is simply a bit of communication and courage goes along way in any type of relationship. (Says the single girl)
            Is not desperate or anything to be clear on what you are with 'them' early on don't let your mind tell you other bc is not.
            
            If you genuinely don't want to waste time on someone be clear talk to them and tell them about your worries bc that's what a relationship should be, mutual trust and understandings. I don't think you should avoid the conversation the more you prolong it the harder it would probably be to bring it up. 
            
            As always take in mind the option that will hurt now than on the long run. 
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perseus_parker

@StrikerTheCrow damn you have good advice. i don't want to bring it up to them since we've barely had time to talk and i don't want to to seem like im overthinking it and seem desperate/eager to be with them so idk what to do
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perseus_parker

get on my head
          GET ON MY HEAD
          iykyk

perseus_parker

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wtf i just relapsed for fun
          i seriously think im a fucking bipolar sociopath with serve anxiety
          anyone who is bipolar or feels numb plz help me out

perseus_parker

@l0wk3y2006 i hope it gets better for you. you've supported me so much on here and i truly hope that you heal <333
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l0wk3y2006

@perseus_parker wait......you sh?..............im actually in the same boat....and i feel terrible saying this but......i started cutting last week. i got curious and im trying to work through it but i ended up doing it again a couple nights ago. i completely get what you're going through<33
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perseus_parker

@StrikerTheCrow yeah ig. i still would have brought up therapy regardless if she found out about my cutting, that's why i want to see a therapist, so she doesn't have that burden of my poor mental health
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StrikerTheCrow

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So um like is it normal to have a big urge to just fucking trow a hard ass baseball ball to someone's head?

perseus_parker

@StrikerTheCrow prob not but i wouldn't blame you for it <3
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StrikerTheCrow

@perseus_parker  would they change their mind if I said the hypothetical victim would be my mentally a d abusive step dad <3?
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perseus_parker

@StrikerTheCrow for me it is but the mental institutions have a different opinion lol
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--Da-Fluid-Loki--

ELLIS. THERE'S- ELLIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE'S A STUDENT AT MY SCHOOL WHO LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE BUCKY BARNS. AND ONE TIME ONE OF MY SUB TEACHERS LOOKED LIKE LOKI-

perseus_parker

@--Da-Fluid-Loki-- OMGG STOP IM LITERALLY FOLDING FOR BUCKY 24/7 BRO I WISH I HAD TEACHERS AND CLASSMATES THAT LOOK LIKE MARVEL CHARCTERS T-T
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