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Ok- fucking- anxiety tics. I had them really fucking badly like my Sophmore year. Yeah, nobody told me about the possible residual effects for when they wore off. This is fucking annoying that they've been here for years now. I think I'd rather have the full blown thing, than the annoying, off putting mini ones I get after every mild awkward interaction. Because at least holding back the full thing didn't make me feel like my body was having a mini nuclear explosion!
However, I'm glad I don't have them super big anymore, because I can play off the smaller ones as a cold chill or something. Because trauma from that time specifically made me so much more self-conscious.