Want to talk about scenarios you play inside your head of things that'll never happen to you? Let's do some sharing :)))
I tend to always imagine myself in the future as that one successful person who's gonna be lonely and independent and have some tats... Then meet up with old classmates who would be surprised by the changes they see, they're all gonna be married or have kids already and I'll be the only one who's single and lives with 2 cats. No time for love because I'd be married to my job...
Something like that... I find it somehow a "beautiful" yet dark way of living... Maybe it's an odd goal of mine. I wish I could have zero interest in people or relationships because I actually do struggle. I get anxious when people don't like me or anything like that, I feel horrible when I think I'm not lovable. So, I believe the only solution to that is to be fine with being lovable, I would be happier if I don't need anyone's love, attention, or anything like that. I wish I could be happier when alone. But, sadly I don't. I thirst for love... sorta... Right now I need to love and be loved.
Kinda like needing water to live but disliking it...?
I guess that's where those thoughts are coming from... But about the tattoos... I just REALLY REALLY WANT THEM!