peytonlovestowrite

hey guys how are y'all doing? Im kinda in a trench right now- figuratively of course. So I've liked this guy for about a month so yesterday I asked him out and he said yes. Is it crazy that I'm already worried that it will end? is that some sort of sign or something??
          	
          	~xoxo your worried leprechaun

darksun2011

@Chappelread yes it will be his fault lmao
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darksun2011

@peytonlovestowrite its okayy don't be nervous!!! I'm sure everything will go good!!!
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Chappelread

Omg yaey I’m so happy for you (and if it does end it’s his fault idc lol) 
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peytonlovestowrite

hey guys how are y'all doing? Im kinda in a trench right now- figuratively of course. So I've liked this guy for about a month so yesterday I asked him out and he said yes. Is it crazy that I'm already worried that it will end? is that some sort of sign or something??
          
          ~xoxo your worried leprechaun

darksun2011

@Chappelread yes it will be his fault lmao
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darksun2011

@peytonlovestowrite its okayy don't be nervous!!! I'm sure everything will go good!!!
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Chappelread

Omg yaey I’m so happy for you (and if it does end it’s his fault idc lol) 
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peytonlovestowrite

good morninggg baddies.  I hope your days are going weelllllllll

darksun2011

@peytonlovestowrite I havent had them yet acc!! I have my first exam on the 21st!
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peytonlovestowrite

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Heyy my lil baddies! anyways last night i asked my dad if it was okay for me to buy an hbomax subscription you know the 10.99 one right? Mind you with my own job an constant income I can easily pay for it. This man starts yelling at me, okay not just like a little voice raise I'm talking screams from the death of hell.  As soon as my brain registers what's going on he's already gone off the rail and sayin stuff like "don't ask to drive then" over and over again. context he was perfect  fine anger wise like for about two weeks leading up to this so I thought to my stupid little self " ohh it's alright he's not a bipolar asshole anymore" ere wrong. How do go from smiling and laughing to freaking freaky cougar yelling at me?? more content I had not been disrespectful before this had happened. He said I was spending my money and stupid shit. Okay first of all I have only gotten two paychecks so far. And both of witch where spent completely on Christmas for other people. the first time I wanna buy something for myself you know with my money it's a bad thing.  Anyways I had already had a shit ass day at school so it was icing on the cake. Y'all already know that I wrote a song. Well not a full song but I'm working on it. It's about my dad's mood swings and how they are really affecting my mental health.  The song in question: 
          Somebody help me
          I'm loosening myself to my feelings 
          Ain't got no time for healin
          When I just keep getting shot down 
          
          Your mood swings are giving me wip lash
          Ive let every word that you've said go straight to my head 
          Now I'm insecure  And I care what people think 
          
          Boy, I'm drowning 
          No matter what I do 
          Its never enough for you
          Okay that's the song I don't know if it really fits together but if you guys have suggestions I'm very open to listening to them. I hope you all have a good day today Love y'all so freaking much ❤️  p.s I'm gonna post this along side what happened at school yesterday in xoxo diaries.
          ~ your emotional song writer

darksun2011

@peytonlovestowrite the songs great I relate to it alot it horrible how unfair your dads being I hope everything works out!
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peytonlovestowrite

Hey guys, I'm back? I dont know what to really say other than it's a long story. But I'm safe, dont worry. I really missed all of you so much! How's it going, my cuties?  
          
          ~xoxo peyton

Chappelread

Yayyy welcome backkk! Hope ur doing okay! Today’s pretty good so far 
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Mellenlynn

@peytonlovestowrite Fine thank you for.asking!❤
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skyeee105

How are you honey

skyeee105

Thats good
            Me too :)
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peytonlovestowrite

@skyeee105 thxs for asking im alright how are you?
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skyeee105

Hope ur doing alright
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peytonlovestowrite

GUYS, okay, update my father said "you can have one more chance" like I didn't do anything but whatever. at least i can still work! There has been so much drama recently, and I'm really so excited to just be out of school for 2 weeks. Anyway, on Tuesday I'm going shopingggg super excited. 
          
          love yalllll
          
          ~xoxo your lil stressed out boomer

darksun2011

@peytonlovestowrite hey, you ok? haven't heard from you in a while
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Kennalt11

@peytonlovestowrite i GOT A BF AHHHHHH oml hes sooo sweeet
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peytonlovestowrite

guys, so my dad is making me quit my job, can he legally do that??

darksun2011

@peytonlovestowrite You have got to be kidding me -_-
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peytonlovestowrite

@darksun2011 its making me disresepctful he says
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