phantasmcloud

sorry for reposting/republishing the new chapter so many times; i keep seeing mistakes and i'm kind of editing it lmao

phantasmcloud

dripping honey
          
          My black blinds crumpled against my window;
          Papered, dark-colored haze,
          Morning has come today. (can you face the day?)
          Touché.
          
          Hazel coloured eyes in golden hours,
          Lips turned up and then devoured,
          We’re being wired today.
          
          My life’s kind of average, a downer.
          Moods fluctuate out of my power.
          You don’t make it any better,
          But it’s not like matters.
          
          Turn up my psychic powers,
          Make it like I’m your matter,
          Mold me to your desire.
          I don’t give a damn, damn.
          
          Hazel coloured eyes in golden hours,
          Lips turned up and then devoured.
          We’re being wired today.
          
          Questionable thought,
          My mind scattered through and through,
          But I can only say thank you.
          For being here,
          Here.
          — 
          I feel like I can’t ever commit to anything,
          Albums records, or fresh friendships that I want to last,
          But can’t, just can’t.
          I’ll jot some thoughts for the next decade,
          Leave my future self ashamed and wondering.
          Flippant memories made seconds ago,
          Come and go, come and go, 
          Come and go.
          
          I’ll speak to my yellow walls that,
          “Today’s going to be like every other,”
          I always seem to never not be hypocritical.
          I speak for today’s tomorrow, I know you won’t ever be the same,
          Cause it’s just the way that is.
          
          Saying I’ve learned something,
          Might be the fattest lie ever to be conceived.
          I keep making mistakes; miracles just keep my sanity,
          I feel life’s just taking control, trying to keep me occupied.
          
          And I’m trying, 
          Girl I’m trying,
          I’m working for me, for me.
          For not only a simple sanity.

phantasmcloud

oh my lord my stomach is killing me; I did ab workouts yesterday and it’s 12 pm the next day and my body still hurts like h e c k. I can’t even sit up straight without feeling like someone’s cutting me in half :(. This is what I get for actually trying to be fit for once lmao