phenylephrine32

War is over ( I moved on )

A stare too long ~ 
          
          The walls were too still , 
          holding breaths 
          or 
          maybe holding some stares
          Too long .
          You stood by the end of the 
          school corridor , chatting, smiling.
          
          
          
          And as I stepped in , 
          Your eyes found mine.
          It almost felt like 
          A hallucination.
          There was no rush , no amusement ,
          You kept looking and I - 
          I kept holding my breath , maybe 
          A bit too long .
          Then as I stepped forward 
          You looked at me.
          Again.
          
          This time - too real , too honest .
          Like you weren't just looking at me 
          But seeing through -
          Like memorizing the fireworks 
          In my heart .
          
          You didn't let me 
          Look away , you held it -
          Like you were scared.
          Scared if you'd let go
          I might disappear.
          Your eyes felt as stars 
          In the dark sky .
          Too bright. Too honest .
          
          The world kept moving like 
          The breeze by the shore .
          And we kept talking - 
          With those eyes .
          For the first time in years , 
          I held that moment 
          Too long.
          For the first time 
          In eternities - 
          I stared a moment 
          Too long .
          
          
          You didn't look away .
          And that , that made 
          The difference.
          
          

वो न होगा तो क्या कमी होगी,
          बस अधूरी सी जिंदगी होगी।

वो लौट आया ज़रूर,
          मगर साथ निभाने नहीं,
          इश्क़ लौटाने आया था।
          
          वो इश्क़, जिसे मैंने अपने
          इन लफ़्ज़ों पर सजाया था l
          वो लौटाने आया था मेरा सुकून,
          वो सुकून, जो मैंने उसकी
          साँसों में पाया था।
          
          वो लौटाने आया था मेरे ख़्वाब,
          जिन पर मैंने उसके नाम पिरोए थे,
          जिन पर उसका हक़ मुझसे
          थोड़ा ज़्यादा मैंने पाया था।
          
          वो लौट आया ज़रूर,
          मगर साथ निभाने नहीं,
          इश्क़ लौटाने आया था।
          
          

इन आँखों से लिखी मैंने तेरी जुदाई,
          के छोड़ दी खुशियाँ, छोड़ दी खुदाई।
          इन हाथों से पिरोए मैंने तेरे ख़्वाब,
          लिख दी मोहब्बत, जो रही उम्रभर बेहिसाब l

घूरने वालों को क्या ख़बर,
          निहारना भी एक ख़ामोश इबादत है... 

Khuda chahta toh use meri chahat banata,
          Khuda chahta toh use meri ibaadat banata.
          Use bas ek khwaab keh kar chhod diya maine,
          Khuda chahta toh use meri haqeeqat banata.

But we can't lose something we never had.