Being alone is by far the scariest feeling ever. Why?
Its scary af. The feeling of being left behind. People first leave you, refusing to accept you as you are. You are just not their definition of perfect.
Then, slowly very steadily you start losing focus. Happens mostly with artistic ppl (no intention to bring down anyone). You start craving validation, little bit of care, little bit of concern, just one person to be called yours.
By this time you have forgotten how you are supposed to be treated, so even 1% of humanity seems to be a big deal. You think it is what you wanted, what you needed, what you deserve..
Then they leave too, they leave coz they r tired, they leave coz u r too broken.
They all leave. They give you the reason of your condition to be you.
You hate yourself. You doubt yourself. You try to love yourself again. You want to escape the reality but you can't. Don't mind all this, I guess m just bleeding everywhere...