phoenix-soul

hey!! u still alive? not sure if u remember me from over 2 years ago but hello!!

The truth is, I’m lost.
          
          You had lit up my life, and now, without you I can’t see.
          
          I’m scared of the dark, and now you’re not even here to wrap me up in your arms and tell me that everything is going to be okay. 
          
          —Because everything is not going to be okay.
          
          It’s difficult to say, but I wish we had never met.
          
          With much love,
          Marie.
          
          [Part of a short story I made, and I think I’m getting invested in it XD]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIJAAAA!!!!!!!!! 

@1DForever_Blue That moment you’re so confident in your math abilities that you become bold enough to assume that the answer sheet is wrong and then you realize that you just made the most stupid mistake the world has ever seen, and you come to the conclusion that you’re an idiot. XD

i’m sorry,
          i’m sorry for everything,
          i’m sorry,
          i’m sorry for anything.
          i wanna make it right,
          but i'll only lose the fight.
          making exuses for my fails,
          can't you see my bitten nails.
          if only you knew me better,
          you would know im not alright.
          my brain's in cloudy weather,
          oh, i think i've lost my sight.
          i'm blaming me,
          for this and that,
          i need to flee,
          i cannot chat.
          please,
          forgive my broken spirit,
          i dont think i can be strong,
          yes,
          i know i’m incoherent,
          "what the hell did i do wrong?"
          
          -this is just a poem I wrote a while back and it feels good to get it off my chest-

*coughs*
          I’ve been summoned to name 5 things I have fun doing by @baxterl23 sooooooo...brace yourselves
          (Note: I did not think this list through)
          
          1. I enjoy listening to music. Yes, hang me, how could anyone have fun listening to music? I must be the only one right?! I knew I was special...No, but truly I do have fun listening to music, recently I went to an open mic with a friend, felt like my soul was smiling; especially when he recited his poetry. (I’ll get to that later..)
          
          2. I have fun singing. Shh, I’m shy, so really the only time I do this is at home, but it’s still fun the same; especially when you’re screaming the lyrics. Ten extra points if you lose your voice.
          
          3. I find immense joy going hiking in nature, especially if it’s a place I haven’t been to yet. I just feel happy being in those surroundings as if maybe I could just lie down and stay there. Forever and ever and a little bit more.
          
          4. I have fun reading, writing, and anything that has to do with literature. UNLESS, I’m being forced to do it. What evil. Anyways, I enjoy writing and reading because it provides an escape from reality and lets my imagination roammmm. Going back to what I said earlier, I also enjoyed hearing my friend recite his poetry at an open mic; probably because I suck at poetry myself. Anyway, onto the next and last one.
          
          5. Last but not least, I have fun doing FUN activities. (Remember fun is defined by my me, not by you). I especially loved going parasailing last year, an experience I won’t ever forget. These activities can include, but are not limited to, camping, traveling, sight seeing, swimming, white water rafting, floating down the river, zip lining, etc...

I've been told to state five things I like about myself, soooo here goes nothing. I know I haven't been on Wattpad for a hot few months, buttttt it is my intention to start getting back to writing soon. 
          
          1. I like my ability to be able to procrastinate and work under lots of pressure and stress. It's not the best trait, but it gets the job done and that's all that matters! 
          
          2. I like my creativity and imaginatiooooooon. Helps with my writing, art, music playing, and my exquisite day dreaming in class. A+
          
          3. My hair. It's a dark brown and I like how it's straight and doesn't give me too much of a hassle. I also like how short it is now, helps with the heat in the summer.
          
          4. I like my high pain tolerance. There's not much to say except I'm just glad I can handle pain, since it has helped in many instances.
          
          5. Last but not least, I also like my positive outlook on life in general. It's helped me through tough times in my life.
          
          If you're reading this, you're more than welcome to try naming five things you like about yourself; you should try it out. I think it's a lovely way of encouraging people to be positive towards themselves. <3

Positivity chain!
          
          If you get this you have to publicly state five things you like about yourself and send this to ten of your favorite followers :)

Hey, how are you? :) I just wanted to let you know that I will be publishing my book AMETHYST soon. I was wondering if you would like to be featured in my Thank You note for supporting me thus far? ❤️

Isn't it hard to play along the thin line of not giving up on someone, but slowly distancing yourself and losing yourself in the process?