im starting to write again after major writers block + a massive depressive episode ! im not sure when ill first upload but hopefully itll b soon !! i want to try and publish stories from fandoms/youtubers that i am currently into and that have helped me through the last couple of months. id also like to explain why i havent rlly been active or anything.
march 9th 2022 i attempted suicide n ended up in hospital throwing up all night. i was on medication for over 55 hours (through an iv) and was discharged on sunday 13th march 2022 after speaking to the mental health team. before that, i was struggling and coukd barely get out of bed if it wasnt for school or to even go out w my friends.
after i was discharged i had my year10 mock exams and i wanted to focus on them. these past two weeks i have started to spiral again n i have essentially relapsed like 4 times in two weeks as well as falling back into never getting out of bed and staying in my room all the time again.
next tuesday (may 3rd 2022) i have my official autism assessment that ive waited on for over two years and then afterwards my mum is going to try (and hopefully) get me a counsellor to talk to.
i have, officially, one school year left before i am finished and i choose sixth form or college before university. within the next year i want to focus on exams and recovery so uploads wont be able to be on a schedule, as well as the fact that schedules stress me out and cause me unneeded anxiety.
i look forward to publishing more stories n for you to read them <3
-tobi