I know nobody's going to read it anyway, but I just want to write it somewhere, hoping that I'm not alone here.
I'm so tired of being myself, so tired of living my life, so tired of everything to the point when I don't mind actually anything.
I can't see my future.
I can't imagine myself being happy someday, it would be so unbelievable for me to actually enjoy living.
I get up every morning just by the thought that "maybe today will be better than yesterday" and it's really hard. It's really hard since I'm not able to be happy.