Nutella

Saw post boys made and I thought I have seen everyone's why ain't Liam posting anything then I went ohhh, that was like 6 in the morning, feels weird to read "we love you Liam. -Louis, Zayn, Niall and Harry." I don't think I can do this but I'm hating how people aren't allowing anyone else to grieve bcz "he was a celeb" and "you weren't even close to him, you have never even met him". Guys please don't do that, you never know what was the last string they are holding onto and how much the person might have meant to them or how many times they might have saved them. If you are on social media or have friends who have got to hear sth like that please try to comfort them and let them know their emotions are valid. Again please be kind and don't blame anyone. Let's just grieve for now what's left can be solved later. Please please please be kind to everyone.   

we will get through this together, please be okay.. he is in a much better place now, in peace

Since the day I made this account which was 3years ago my first pfp was of all 1d boys, second was of Larry and ever since I haven't changed this pic and ik a lot of people know me from this pfp in my fandom but I think it's time to change so I could see his smile every time and remember him having a smile always. 

Did not know there'll come a day when their bio will also state their death date, so f heartbroken and dk what to feel like. Just few days ago we directioners were happy maybe we'll get a reunion or will see all 5 of them on stage bcz all of them are doing tours and were waiting for Liam to announce his and I thought f one day I'll get to see them and was so happy but looks like I'll die with regret of not seeing all 5 of them together but hey on the positive side I have so many memories we all made together and on internet, please to all my fellow mates take a deep breath and I'm here if you wanna cry, we'll do it together. 

I have always imagined how it'll hurt when one of them leaves the world but I also imagined myself to be in my 60s. I never thought I'll be writing it this soon, Rest Easy in Clouds Lima Bean, I hope no hate words reach you there and you enjoy looking down at us and your son, family and your brothers who loved you sm and at your fans and all the memories you have made, I hope those last moments weren't too painful for you and you were gone in a blink and did not have to think about all the negative things, while this is the most heartbreaking news I have heard in every long I wish  this to be j a nightmare and I wake up from this or it's j a prank and you go live on ig or in my wildest thought you are alive somewhere and just wanted to leave this fame world and go unknown but again ik this is not real and you have gone. I hope I have done my best to be by your side at your worst and I'll see those texts I sent you a year or two ago and I'm sorry I wasn't there during these past few months and I'll live with guilt of not checking upon you or wishing/texting you good things, while these are things I'm disappointed about I promise to check on boys regularly and promise to remember you even on my deathbed and hope to see you on otherside my Angel, this is so heartbreaking to write and I'm already missing you sm even though it's not been a day idk how I'll survive rest of days without you. I miss you sm and I wish you have a lot of good memories bcz you have me the best childhood ever and I'll keep cherishing them my Lima Bean, Rest Easy Daddy Direction

After a very very long time I'm scared and it's not just me it's most of us. I'm scared if my mom takes a bit more minutes when she goes shopping. I'm scared of correcting or talking back to any f men( despite the rage I feel within) bcz I never know the extent they can go to if their egos are hurt, after a very long time I've to choose between different colors of those self defence tools. It took me and many more of us a long to talk back to a men with full confidence and now I have lost it, bcz it's so f easy for a men to come and take our life just in seconds, the life we preserved, the life our parents protected for so long. Justice is sth I'll never hope in this country bcz after all someone's life and dreams of more than 30+ years is just 10 f lakh!!!! She might have been 19 when the Nirbhaya case happened and might have hoped for some change she would have never imagined her life to end like that, so yeah I'm scared bcz I'm 19 today and I might be 31 someday. May she know that she fought a lot and none of this was her fault. 

Just today I found some weird nodes on my mom's head and she says it's hurting and that she feels dizzy and feels hungry but can't eat and that she feels like vomiting idk what to make out this whole thing but f.k this is scaring the sh.t out of me idk what to do or say or whome to tell I just don't want to think sth is wrong bcz idk but my instincts say sth is not right and idk I feel like dying and I can literally feel weird in my stomach even at thought of sth bad happening to her. Maybe I'm just overthinking but the probability of my overthinking being right is 50% and I just dk I want this night to end so that I can go to hospital and get her checked and I wanna hear that nothing is wrong with her but I literally feel like crying idk why, I don't want anything happening to her I'm literally already very tensed and idk wtf to do and all ik is it's gonna be a hell of night bro. I just what would I even do if sth bad happens to her and I can't even tell how much my heart is hurting bcz I don't want her to get stressed even more but idk who to tell all this!!!!!

Heyyy I hope you're doing good love❤❤

i looveee your background pfp! <333

Happy New year everyone, i hope this year ain't shitty as last one!!