i try to be social, i read gigi's stories kitsune i follow her. i send constant messages to be her friend and when someone was writing inappropriate material about her and i show what he said. It's my fault and she can talk to him like nothing happened, they actually became closer. I try, i make stories i follow people but no, i still am a terrible person and for what. I get literally nothing out of it. No one cares about how I feel, I have feelings you know and when I get mad I am the bad guy, the bully. I can't believe I decided to be alive, might as well kill myself, the way i'm being treated.