@plainsights-
/ look… i know i keep abandoning her. but the brainrot,, the brainrot is slowly creeping up on me…… i can FEEL her. we could also blame my incessant listening to ttpd bc. lou weathers core.
/ but also, mastermind. nothing is ever accidental with this bitch. she's only cryptic and machiavellian 'cause she cares!!! she was on that stab movie set to scheme her way back into gale weathers' life!!
did you actually love him?
SOMETHING TO DIE FOR, @plainsights- : { ten months over and gale still doesn't know if it's over for good. that's the kicker of it all, isn't it? you never know it's over until you're standing in the blood of the ones who didn't reach such an intact end. you never know it's over until you're waking up in the dead of night in a house, not a home, clutching your bedsheets and hoping your world is still intact. she's defended lou for all this time and will continue to do so, blocking out the soul deconstructors with a loud correction from the blood-speckled rose picked by the killer himself, but she can't pretend she never wondered. at the answer gale huffs out a sound of annoyance, blue eyes sharpened into daggers before she brushes into her usual demeanour. } he was a pussy. { she fills in, voice hard. } too weak to face himself on his own. fuck, what is it with these men and mommy issues? it's the goddamn backbone to this entire nightmare. ( .. ) i'm glad you didn't wind up with him, though. even if things were different, the guy never shut his mouth.
( @stabsreport- ) he defined what i perceived love to be at the time. [ there are layers. lou spent a moment too long hesitating to answer that question for her to brush it over with the logical tear-apart she's treated herself with since it all went down. between a strong case of vicious compulsory heterosexuality, the thrill of being paraded a little bit like a trophy, and an 'i can decode him' attitude that made it into a personal competition for lou. now it was obsession : how could i not hear the voices in his head? i'll make sure to stay ten steps ahead of everyone else from now on. it was machiavellian. it was self-defence. ] i was his toy. he was hardly anything of a man.
huh. that's the partner you mentioned?
* listening to ttpd right now ,, no one gets this like we do
SOMETHING TO DIE FOR, @plainsights- : oh, it's nothing. just that he has the personality of wet cardboard. { her casual rip-off-the-band-aid strategy is paired with her blunt disregard for whatever her cousin may say about roman bridger, one brow arching in the standard unimpressed fashion. } how did you two meet? he doesn't strike me as someone who speaks your language. * she said this one was for us !! she's hiding in our dms i'm sure of it.
( @stabsreport- ) yes. [ jesus, gale weathers has gotten hard to read. perhaps it's the years of rusted telephones and unfamiliarity stretching a sea between them that makes it hard. but this is a reaction she cannot decipher. ] you seem surprised. / real !! so real !! i have not stopped listening to it and idk when i ever will. how can we believe she DIDN'T make this album for us???
air hugs are still on the table, right ??
WAKE WITH YOUR MEMORY, @plainsights- : { the way ellie seems to glow at the question should be warning enough. she'll take any version of a hug that she can get, air or not, and the absence of a hard 'no' feels like a victory. opening her arms ellie steps forward, pausing when she's inches away from actually embracing the elder. } it's this ! i know you don't like being touched— which is totally fine, i mean, it's not bad or anything— so i thought i'd find a way to hug you without making you uncomfy :) * put her in your pocket && keep her safe forever !! she's so babygirl
( @ghostends- ) air hugs. [ lou's brow creases with a mix of confusion and intrigue, with a softness lingering behind her eyes in response to the innocent affection from the sunshine girl. ] how does that work, exactly ? / oh ellie-marie let me hold you she's so pure
/ idk if i ever stated this explicitly but she is a Lesbian btw. heavily closeted and in denial but. lesbian. roman bridger was a merely heteronormative phase that she regrets for many reasons on the daily.
could i ask you something ??
* she wants to photograph her for the family album :')
WAKE WITH YOUR MEMORY, @plainsights- : well...whatever did or didn't happen was completely asked for by me. you're good ! { in full disclosure she knows her mother was thrown by the sudden phone call followed immediately by a night spent crying to taylor swift in her old room, but that's besides the point. sometimes a girl just needs to listen to 'nothing new' and weep into her pillow. at the blessed switch of topic ellie-marie brightens significantly, bopping up in place. } are you kidding ? you're GORGEOUS, lou. you're like, super photogenic. i have a good eye for these things, you know, and i was thinking that we could get some balcony shots !! maybe at night. it looks classier then, it'll match you well. * lou censoring herself for ellie is driving me insane actually !!
( @ghostends- ) i did. [ the rebuttal is simple but true. it was the regular phone call from gale that started with a ' what did you do ? ' instead of a ' hello. ' lou had noticed the blonde's prolonged sulking silence after that conversation and probably for the first time ever, felt a certain heaviness of guilt for being so harsh for the girl who clearly needed a good therapist's gentle approach. but,, that's past. this is something different. lou's brow creases with mild impatience and mostly curiosity. her eyes widen just slightly at the question. is she serious ? she knew the kid was an aspiring photographer, but.. ] i'm not really the most photogenic of people, kid. what kind of shi-- stuff are we talking.
WAKE WITH YOUR MEMORY, @plainsights- : you didn't do that !! { her rush to absolve pairs beautifully with her need to reassure her cousin against something that definitely did happen ( with a new playlist to soundtrack the emotional spiral she DID ask for ) before she can even acknowledge her growing nerves, feet shuffling against the floor. } i'm putting together a little photo album, you know, and.. and, uh, i was wondering .. well. i was wondering if maybe .. { can she draw this out longer ? her nose scrunches as her eyes squeeze shut in response to mounting anxiety, refusing to meet lou's piercing gaze. } wonderingifmaybeicantakephotosofyouforit?
/ just had an epiphany about how ' tolerate it ' coded she is. this has the potential to be kind of devastating.
/ the intensity of the meaning behind the entire first verse with Her…… the bridge ,, what if i was thinking about jumping off of very tall somethings ( i did this to myself )
ohthankgod you're okay !! i had to bribe a few nurses to get over here but ohmigodiwassoworried !!
* post six❗
( @ghostends- ) when are you not. [ it's the closest lou can get to humour. ellie-marie is built on positivity and sunshine,, at least she tries to appear that way. it's not all so black and white, but that isn't a topic for now. the young blonde could still be openly bleeding and she would still be fine as long as lou was first. awkwardness swells in her throat, and cold lips manage to quirk into a smile that lou will also come to blame on the power of pain medication. ] uh-huh. you're my favorite cousin too, kid. / ms lou weathers is a wednesday addams variant so it makes sense !!!
WAKE WITH YOUR MEMORY, @plainsights- : positive. { is she ? physically, sure. she will be. it didn't feel GOOD to fall through glass casing, but she hardly views it as the thing to take her out once and for all. she's built for wear and tear. } i haven't seen my back yet, but the nurses said it's got the worst damage. maybe a little nerve issues from now on, but nothin' i can't handle. ( .. ) does that mean you can't be my favorite ? i don't think so :) i think you'd be my favorite if i had twenty cousins, so that counts for something. * we are well-versed in sunshine & midnight rain !!
( @ghostends- ) makes sense. [ it's a fair defence and lou allows it to slide. there's an ache in her bones and a pulsing beneath the bandage around her hips but,, she's alive. she's fucking glad to be too,, glad that they all are. ] i'm sure, kid. are you ? [ this is a conversation not under the influence of a plethora of pain meds. lou sighs quietly, folding her arms over her chest. ] ... aren't i your only cousin ? / looks like we have another dynamic duo on our hands !!!
/ lou weathers aka little miss treats every conversation like a chess game she doesn't know how to NOT be a strategist i stg
i tried out those double chocolate cookies !! d'you want one ??
WAKE WITH YOUR MEMORY, @plainsights- : that's.. that's fair, yeah. compliments can be tricky. { it's the closest she can come to not completely disregarding lou's weight in the topic, a hesitantly formed acceptance being offered in place of her continued insistence that lou is a compliment queen, actually, and she is but a humble peasant who can't accept compliments under the threat of death. her smile extends to something far more true before her head ducks down, giggle emerging like she's afraid to openly acknowledge what everyone knows. } that's a solid title. i might extend it to a little local-owned thing one day, just so people know they're not alone. like therapy in a cookie. ( .. ) trust me, i'm actively pushing against that. i caught myself trying to exceed the photography in this month's national geographic and shut that down as soon as i could. * ellie-marie seeing so much of gale in lou & trying to help her in the way she feels like she failed gale...anyway
( @ghostends- ) i don't know how to say 'em. if someone's at fault here then it's both of us. [ lou notices what the young girl is doing, and she rarely finds herself with the need to do some damage control so ellie isn't carrying that weight alone. but jesus, she thought it was impossible for one small person to be so all-consumed and out-putting with purely warmth and light. it even extends to her coping cookies. ] i think it'd be a hit. call it ' coping cookies. ' cookies for coping. ( ... ) doesn't have to go anywhere, just has to make you happy. don't follow your mom's footsteps in having to make everything have greater purpose beyond enjoyment. / you're so right, it's so real :')) ++ the way lou is the biggest hypocrite .. girl can't name ONE hobby she has
WAKE WITH YOUR MEMORY, @plainsights- : oh !! thank you, then. sorry, i, uh, i don't always know how to take compliments. { while quick to absolve her cousin's awkward nature ellie-marie can't help but put some weight on her, taking blame where she can in order to keep that shame off lou's shoulders. at the seeming agreement ellie only brightens more, a feat somehow made possible by receiving the praise of the unflinching lou weathers. } exactly ! i thought, you know, there are a lot of different things to do to cope with some of the crap life deals out. why not pick a better one and share it, right ? ( .. ) d'you think so ?? i've considered it before, but it's never gone anywhere. * her awkwardness is a lou weathers special :') all 'i can't put my words together so please just. take this and get it. please.'
