i'd like to apologize to the people who ive been insensitive to, not only about mental health but also about general problems too. keeping grudges was a bad idea and throwing around ill-mannered comments wasnt a good move either. Jonghyun's death really made me see others in a different perspective, i feel like people belittled him and thats what built up to lead to suicide. THIS is what i feel guilty for, for being rude and insolent to others when they've done something bad to me, i should have just killed them with kindness, this is what would have made me happier but unfortunately its too late now.