pocatellowolf

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okay, so i have been making those rainbow loom bracelets like the ones in 2013. so, me, kks1031, and my other friends started freaking out about it, and i am getting another loom off of amazon. im weirdly excited, but i also dont know how to feel. i want to be a kid again, but i also want to start my life. but, im scared. there is so many possibilities. i overthink crap too much, so its nice to be able to put my feelings into words. anyways, i have been watching random videos, because i dont have the same love for youtube as i did a few years ago, hell, even last year. i feel weird, and not normal. but thats what anxiety medication is for. i feel ignored, and overlooked by my peers. i feel as if i dont exist sometimes, and, when ive really thought about it, i dont feel like existing. but, i do not want to die. it is just so hard to think what happens after we die. my main concern is leaving my family, that i am so close to. it scares me to think that one day, all my grandparents, and my parents will be dead. and, ill be stuck here still, alone, and i dont know what ill do with myself. its hard to know what happens. i feel bad for atheists tbh, because its as if they have nothing to look forward to. if there was no god, what is the point of existing? you might as end it all already. fuck dude, i get into my thoughts, and it makes my head hurt. does it hurt to die? do i have to die in a horrible manner, or old age? what is heaven like? being a catholic, really keeps my hopes up. i have something to look forward to in life. im not just living for no purpose, and believing in some sort of religion, it helps. but, im not the one to talk. have i doubted god? fuck yeah. am i scared, yes i fucking am. who wouldnt? you dont even know what wonders lie outside of our knowledge? hell, one of us could be an angel, and another a fucking time traveler! sorry, i just needed to talk :)

vaampcore

@pocatellowolf hhhh im always late-
          	  
          	  but i relate to this to an extent
          	  
          	  my family is very mormon and they expect me to follow everything they believe in and believe everything or whatever.
          	  
          	  i don't agree with everything, and tbh when i move out im not going back to that church, mainly because they're homophobic and won't let you get tattoos or drink coffee-
          	  
          	  but i don't know what happens when you die. i just hope there's a heaven, or at least something like it.
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pocatellowolf

thank you :')) im legit crying after this
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3_i_like_bands_3

It’s totally okay to feel this way! I am also VERY scared to grow up and a lot of times want to be a kid again. If it helps, death also scares me even though I am Christian. If I were you, I’d recommend finding a youth group at a nearby church. I go to one and it’s helped me so much with my relationship with God and my fear of death. And I also always wonder what heaven and death feel like. It’s totally okay and I’m always here for you if you need to talk more :)
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pocatellowolf

this message may be offensive 
okay, so i have been making those rainbow loom bracelets like the ones in 2013. so, me, kks1031, and my other friends started freaking out about it, and i am getting another loom off of amazon. im weirdly excited, but i also dont know how to feel. i want to be a kid again, but i also want to start my life. but, im scared. there is so many possibilities. i overthink crap too much, so its nice to be able to put my feelings into words. anyways, i have been watching random videos, because i dont have the same love for youtube as i did a few years ago, hell, even last year. i feel weird, and not normal. but thats what anxiety medication is for. i feel ignored, and overlooked by my peers. i feel as if i dont exist sometimes, and, when ive really thought about it, i dont feel like existing. but, i do not want to die. it is just so hard to think what happens after we die. my main concern is leaving my family, that i am so close to. it scares me to think that one day, all my grandparents, and my parents will be dead. and, ill be stuck here still, alone, and i dont know what ill do with myself. its hard to know what happens. i feel bad for atheists tbh, because its as if they have nothing to look forward to. if there was no god, what is the point of existing? you might as end it all already. fuck dude, i get into my thoughts, and it makes my head hurt. does it hurt to die? do i have to die in a horrible manner, or old age? what is heaven like? being a catholic, really keeps my hopes up. i have something to look forward to in life. im not just living for no purpose, and believing in some sort of religion, it helps. but, im not the one to talk. have i doubted god? fuck yeah. am i scared, yes i fucking am. who wouldnt? you dont even know what wonders lie outside of our knowledge? hell, one of us could be an angel, and another a fucking time traveler! sorry, i just needed to talk :)

vaampcore

@pocatellowolf hhhh im always late-
            
            but i relate to this to an extent
            
            my family is very mormon and they expect me to follow everything they believe in and believe everything or whatever.
            
            i don't agree with everything, and tbh when i move out im not going back to that church, mainly because they're homophobic and won't let you get tattoos or drink coffee-
            
            but i don't know what happens when you die. i just hope there's a heaven, or at least something like it.
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pocatellowolf

thank you :')) im legit crying after this
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3_i_like_bands_3

It’s totally okay to feel this way! I am also VERY scared to grow up and a lot of times want to be a kid again. If it helps, death also scares me even though I am Christian. If I were you, I’d recommend finding a youth group at a nearby church. I go to one and it’s helped me so much with my relationship with God and my fear of death. And I also always wonder what heaven and death feel like. It’s totally okay and I’m always here for you if you need to talk more :)
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