Why do we have to feel pain? Heart ache? We try to be happy for those few moments we get. But those are just moments and when those moments are over we are sad and empty. Why do we have to go through hard things? Why can't there be a way to be happy always? Constantly suffering and dying internally. Then moving on from the sadness and trying to forget that dying feeling. To feel that joy again, but you just end up feeling more empty. It's all a lie. Happy endings, true love,heroes. The world is a nasty place. Full of hate and fear. And any little bit of joy it finds it destroys. Rips it from our hands in an instant. We are loved one moment and then hated then ignored with out explanation. You can't live with yourself. You hate everything. You did something wrong, this is your fault. Your always dumb enough to trust again to just get hurt again. But you will do anything to feel that love again get that high of admiration. Put on a smile for the world to see. When on the inside you are dying. You want to speak up tell them your not okay that your lying you need help. You want to feel that bliss again... Smile for real. But you can't your to afraid, that you will ruin it all again and be even worse then before. You just pretend to be okay even when your on the verge of a break down. Some people know that your dying but the just pretend your fine because you say are. You are dying of a poisonous cancer of fear. Letting it consume you every day.
