m e r c y

ur bio hit hard

if i made you a thread, would you delete it? 

wow i really loved that greeting

my twitter inbox was lonely
          you better be though !

i'll redo my account when i'm off work

guess who's back fuckers 
          

if you want love — NF

SINCE WE WANNA MAKE INDIRECT POSTS- 
          
          ahem, just wanted to leave a little something here. I never lied about loving you. I never faked my feelings for you and I never ever EVER pretended to be something with you that I'm not. I started wattpad five years ago as an escape to get out of my day to day life where my mom and her boyfriend would beg me to kill myself. where he would hand me razors and box cutters and tell me he was leaving and to just do it now. It helped me get through the hell I lived through and I got attached because I'm a writer. Or i was before this. I got attached to the characters I created as more acceptable pieces of myself. You're right, I love the attention that I get being kahlan, or elliet, rhett, macen, james. ALL OF EM SIS. I liked it because they were pieces of myself that I could show people and be confident in because it was less hurt if people didn't like them as me. I started and stopped wattpad many times because I started to feel okay in my life again and then something else would happen that'd make me want to come back and escape. The reason here recently is because I was assuaged in may and physically can't get close to someone again. They guy was my friend, thought we were close whatever. So now it's fucked me up more than I originally accepted it would. I cant seem to let anyone in anymore unless it's on here because y'all are still at arms length. You're states away. COUNTRIES AWAY even. Don't ever come for me because you don't know my story. My love was and is still real. Don't let your insecurities be projected onto me because it's not right. 

it's funny how flaky people are

i'm not active anymore smfh