rainey

Hey, again, um... I'm not feeling okay. I haven't been okay this month. I want to respond but im really not feeling up to it, I really don't feel good and I just don't want to live where im currently living anymore. I don't want to be here, I hate it here, it's horrible. I'm sorry. I'm so stressed out, and all I can do is just cry or sit around without any sort of emotion. I find joy in watching friends and not peeing for hours despite needing to, I'm surprised I havent gotten a kidney infection. I havent eaten in a little whole today because when I do, I feel sick. I'm drinking water occasionally, but not as much as I should. I'm going to look into getting help for myself and maybe I can finally be okay. 
          I really did think i was emotionally ready for today, for this summer, for this coming school year but I'm not so sure. I can pretend as much as I can but that isn't healthy. All I was to do is cry and leave this place but if I do I'll get in so much trouble. So fucking much trouble. This was a horrible rant, if I ghost again for a few year I'm just working on myself. I'll more than likely be okay.

I've been really busy with stuff lately. I'm sorry if it seems like I'm ignoring you, I promise I'm not.
          
          I'm dealing with certain problems, and also my 6 year old half sister came down to visit so I'm busy with that cause this is the first time I've met her.
          
          It's hard battling both at the same time and I was taking a little break but I realized it might not be good to not let anyone know.
          
          So I'm letting you know, I'm busy but I will get to you.

Sshould I make a lil book about my life or somethin? I'm not all that interesting but hey I think I'm a lil cool :3

i might be gone for a lil but today

guys watch this pls lmfao
          
          http://vm.tiktok.com/RXtn4n/

Fucking ROACHES they're DISGUSTING those b*tches can DIE. WHY THE HELL are they ALLOWED TO FLY or even be THAT F*CKING BIG. NO MERCY they must go.

im not gonna respond tonight.

Have you guys heard about the girl, Bianca, who got killed by her boyfriend? I saw all the pictures rn and just :/

I'll try not to ghost you guys for two years again. :/

hey guys I just posted a new yaoi rp book, feel free to check it out :) I promise itll be good, and better when I add even more characters.