tw: self harm, past disordered eating, body weight, calories
bro like actually i have a doctors appointment in a week and i am c o v e r e d in scratches
like my thighs, stomach, and ribs are all scratched up
:) help
how do i hide this
also why is my body Like This
like wtf are my thighs and stomach rolls like this is disgusting,,,
and yet here i am, eating like a pig, barely exercising
:|
yk whats annoying too?
remember that whole disordered eating thing
where i would go entire days on nothing but water, never eat over 750 calories on my "cheat days" (i considered that a lot), and never eat into the triple digits of calories on "regular days?" where i'd exercise for hours and burn more calories than i would eat?
guess how much weight i lost.
that's right. none.
literally not a pound. i was like that for 4, 5 months, which i know isn't really a lot, and it's good that i got better so quick, but damn. my weight fluctuates from 103 to 110 pounds. it's just built that way and that is normal for me. ive never been below 103, not since i was younger, but i have been above 110. when i was in the thick of the disordered eating. i mean what the actual Hell?
i hate my body lol