you’ll live a long time yet, catherine, an eternity without me. you’ll look into the faces of passers by hoping for something that will for an instant bring me back to you. you’ll find moon at night strangely empty, because when you call my name through them, there will be no answer.
so the thing i keep thinking about is was it worth it to be happy for a little bit, even though it ended up sad, or would it have been better if the whole thing never happened?