took a day off school, the stress is acting on me again and as usual my defense mechanism is closing myself off, its not the best but i still do it, what stress? well my prelims are in a week, i want to draw more and write more, but my life is so repetitive i cant do it, i cant even get up in the morning and go for a run because i dont want to wake up at all, and im not satisfied with the way i look, im stress eating way too much, my dizziness is coming back and the next step was an mri scan, what if i find out something i dont want to, and lastly i dont know if my friends are my friends, i cant seem to fit with them, im scared to speak up or play anything im bad at with them, i think thats why im staying away.
anyway i hope this day can fix things, ill try and edit the next chapter of your eyes tell but the words dont feel right to me so i might take more time, ive gotten ideas to edit only then since its somehow not good enough and trust me itll be wayyy better.
ive decided to write an original book and publish it someday, ive got some scenes and the characters sort of planned. i'll start now and probably publish it when ive graduated or even after that because my books dont possess that smartness yet
BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE I TOOK A DAY OFF FOR LIFE GOES ON AND THE REST OF BE
