Ember

hey ember, its the 19th here and im online so might as well do this right now;
          
          happiest birthday to you ml, i miss you and love you always <3 
          i hope life is treating you well these days and you're easier on yourself. you have literally one of the prettiest souls i've ever come across.
          you deserve the world and more.

i rewrote sweetener with a mature perspective again. the one i wrote at nineteen did not resonate with me anymore.

to be honest, i havent been feeling well ever since February? March? i guess whenever  i last wrote aftertaste. it's rather been like an emotional slowdown ever since i wrote june's character. i sort of went through a lot of change because of writing june so descriptively. he had a lot of depth so, i havent had an experience writing such a freeflowing character in like all my writing journey. before writing june, i wrote about hyuna wanting to disappear and it hurt too much—guess it was mirroring how i felt then. (the 12th chapter was supposed to show her absence, people noticing that she was gone) but i just couldn't continue after that. it hurt. i wrote june after that and he grounded her character so well without me having to give him materialistic desires. so yeah. it's been a tough journey. i don't think joohyun nor i have gotten better, i have fully worsened. i don't know about her yet, or maybe she's the same without her boyfriend, too fractured to even exist, but i'll write her. i just have to figure out sunghoon's character, just his. he's more confusing than her, so that's why it's taking me a lot of time.

Well I wanted a name that'd represent my initials when i started writing briefly, but I'm just referred to as Ember. I was slumped because i wasn't feeling one with my name, but I haven't felt this confident with it either. My name is Ember, mononymously Ember.

I despise my ex crush from the bottom of my soul's origin. I hate him so much , we always get put in the same room for everything. I hate him so much. He gets on my nerves and makes me feel like I'm worthless.

red haired guy at Coachella has my heart

ill catch up on ur updates one day trust

again the question is, how do people actually write heeseung ffs yo, that man has such infinite aura that the processors in my brain start melting when i try to describe him.

okay i have a confession to make. it was actually my first time listening to lucifer, honestly, how are people doing after listening to that oh my god? how is sunghoon even human? please

hi hani i miss you always