ember

never been rage baited so badly by a kpop company in the last eight years of being in the kpop fandom lol, holy shit, like how is that company still holding up after embarassing themselves again and again, like I'm more embarassed to even be witness of it lol. how long can you "erase" someone from a group yo? how long? hes still there, we can just act like hes still there if you're acting like he isnt there.

i paused moonhoney like for so long like the last update was literally in 2024, and the next update is like after a year and three months. wow.

I wasnt even looking for a sign, but he just happens to be there like, I was watching young sheldon s3 ep 15 'a boyfriend's ex wife and good luck hair rub' and theres thid part where June (dale's ex wife) meets Connie and tells her that she's there for her grandson Evan. oh my god, oh my god, i cannot do this anymore.

Five days. I saw this funny edit with heeseung and the members and justin bieber's sorry playing in the bg, so basically heeseung's doing the sorry part and the members were like telling him about their situations, like jungwon telling him"hyung engenes want you back, why are you leaving?" and jay with "i cant be the oldest one in the group, come back" and it made me smile like, if you've been on engenetok enough, you might have seen these niki edits where you know the rest of idols tell him about their problems and niki is just like "I'm sorry" and its quiet funny that listening to sorry makes me smile because of the context; plus that guy who sang the lyrics wrong. also, heeseung's voice resembles Justin B and to get over this horrible numb slump I might just end up pulling a Selena when he wrote sorry for her.

you will never fucking understand how numb being an adult makes you feel like. this is just huge fucking news, and at this point the most comforting thing is always the end of the world, and right now, i don't even know what to feel, you know, it's so easy to you know add some sad music and mourn heeseung's absence in enha from now onwards, but it's so petty, just so petty, you don't understand when you have to be literally be fucking working you get the news and you start crying in the middle and now you can't just work anymore, fucking hell. it makes me feel like i'm angry on heeseung for making me cry like this, but I'm trying not to get delusional about it, you know, it's his life, and his decisions, but it's..it's so confusing and, so confusing as an adult like. i literally just watched him perform in walk the line two freaking days ago, and for the first time, my heart genuinely fucking wished that i worked harder to get those tickets to see them perform in person. i always keep thinking that it's the end of the world so nothing hurts anymore, and when i heard the news, it didn't hurt, i went into a state of mild shock, but right now, i don't even know why I'm crying. it hurts.

stop it. i'm weeping like a bitch atp, what do you mean he's leaving enha. it hurts.

came here after the news from belift. heeseung will always remain my favourite artist. i respect his decision and his willingness to find a new direction in music. i will always support him no matter what. i will still adore enhypen as a group.

i actually wanted to come here to talk about txt's latest performances, and as always, they're mind blowing, i just don't know, i wanna scream and talk about it with someone so bad, but that being one side of my mind, the other side of my mind in reality...I have been feeling this since yesterday, and it's bothering me. the news on television is not great now at all, it's very disturbing and it makes me feel so disgusted about certain topics in my books. like, it's very uncomfortable and I've just been feeling so conflicted about morality and kindness because of the news, I've simply lost faith in humanity after seeing so much. i literally cannot take it anymore. I have been trying to seek some relief in the ideas of Buddha, I feel very comforted by his words and reading about his preachings makes me feel better. I feel like certain circumstances, when your timing isn't right, you end being misunderstood, but I really don't know what to say, I personally very very disturbed by what's happening in the world, I don't know if i can really think of publishing more stories atp, i will continue writing, but yeah, for a while, i have to be off.

hey, i was thinking of taking a hiatus, and i read something that kinda like calmed me down and made me reconsider it. I am not really sure, but I am leaning towards the hiatus side. i actually finished writing angelic and might start posting when i feel better. until then, its a wrap for now.

job market so bad you gotta write about it as a fictional story